Dreams

Past and Questions

I just don't get it why should I have to look for x and y when you are here beside me.

Den

"First day pa lang ng classes and you're already facing your books." She said as she sat on the chair in front of me. Nandito kami ngayon sa cafeteria trying to pass time.

"Hello to you too Alyssa. Si Pots?" I close the math book I'm trying to read and looked at her. Di nadin naman kasi ako makakapagfocus sa binabasa ko.

"What's new with that Aly? You already know that your friend is a nerd." Sabi ni Ella while munching a burger she's holding.

"And you are a pig. Seriously Ella, hindi ka ba nagbreakfast?" Taas kilay kong sabi.

"Paki mo ba? Eh sa gutom ako eh." She said pouting.

"Kelan ka ba Hindi nagutom besh? Tsaka itigil mo nga yang pagpapout mo, di ka cute." Kawawang Ella lagi nalang bullied sa amin ni Aly.

I looked at my phone. 15 minutes before time.

"Tara na? Gusto kong makapili ng comfortable na chair."

"Okay. But let me hold that. Bakit ba masyado kang maraming books na dala?" At kinuha nga niya yung Biology book an dala ko.

"I need books to study hindi kasi ako tulad ng iba dyan na genius."

"But it is still too much for a first day don't you think?"

I just smiled knowingly.

Nothing is too much when I do it for you.

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"Class dismissed."

At last the boring subject has ended. Hello lunch break.

"Tara na Den. Ayokong masyadong humaba yung pila."

"Where is Ella?"

"Ba't ganyan ka? Everytime I talk to you si Ella ang hinahanap mo, ako yung nasa harap mo oh. " nakapout na sabi ni Aly.

She's really cute when she does that. Too cute for my own good.

"Nagda-drama ka na nyan? Di po bagay sa'yo. Besides why should I look for you when you are right in front of me? Walang sense. "

Besides why should I look for you when it's only you my eyes see?

"So if wala ako sa harap mo hahanapin mo ako?"

Even when you're here my heart longs for you. So tell me, how can I ever stop looking for you?

"Who knows?" I shrugged faking indifference.

"Den naman eh! Yes or no lang naman ang sagot besh." Nagta-tantrums na yata yung bata. Hahahah

"Let's go Ly. Baka magalit ang Donya."

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"Hindi ko talaga magets kung bakit kelangan isolve yung problem sa math na puro x and y lang din naman yung laman." Kunot noong sabi ni Aly while looking at the problem written on the board.

I looked at her. Ano na naman ang nakain nito at nagtanong ng ganito karandom?

"Sa tingin mo Den bakit x and y any madalas na gamitin sa Algebra? "

"I thought you're still mad at me for not answering your question kaninang lunch?" I asked back.

"Do you know that questions shouldn't be answered with questions?" She retaliated.

I smiled. So we're playing this game huh?

"Are you aware that you just did?" I raised a brow at her.

"Did what?" She asked back innocently but I know better .

"Mag-answer ka nalang dyan. Don't bother me. " I went back to solving the equation.

"Nagtanong lang ako Den. A random question popped in my head and I can't help but say it out loud."

"Bakit ba ako yung dinadaldal mo? Where's Ella? " I asked still looking at my paper.

"Si Pots na naman hinanap mo. Wala. Umalis. Nagbanyo." Even when I'm not looking at her I know she's pouting.

"Why did you ask?" I drop my pen and gave her my full attention.

"Ask what?" She asked trying to act innocent.

"The question" I even made the quotation gesture.

"I just thought that there are 26 letters in the alphabet yet Mathematics always favors x and y."

"So what do you think?"

"How come you always make me answer the questions I actually ask? "

"Because I know you've got answers for them."

"Maybe it's because they are the most unused letter in the alphabet. Maybe Mathematics use them to make them shine since x and y are often taken for granted. Maybe Math is just saying that we should give equal importance to everything, even if it's not always noticed. " she maybe smiling while she's saying this but her eyes is distant like she is actually thinking of a certain memory in her past.

I looked outside. And sighed.

"Or maybe x and y are just representations of two things that are always in my mind."

She looked at me, shocked with eyes asking that silent question.
WHAT? her eyes say.

"Our past and questions."

My past that made me this way and that question still unanswered today.