Touching the Sky

Chapter 7- Answer

My fourth week, no comments.

Feelings where coming and leaving all the time. I couldn't face Jackie after the kiss, I see him as a friend not as that. But I couldn't take off the feeling of his soft lips on mine. Everytime I looked or touched my lips, Jackie's image came. 

I hate you Jackie! You took my K-card and now your stalking my mind! Get the hell out of here! You just can kiss someone that's your friend like that! I'm your friend not your GIRL-friend!  Anyways what do you like about me?! Cream is nicer than me and also a lot more femenine than me! Why din't you fall for her and not me! Just get that in mind ok? 'Cus I...

 "Are you ok?" Rob snapped me out of my thoughts. Right, I was dancing, I can't let Jackie get in my mind like that when I'm dancing. Focus, girl. I stood up and walk to the mirror. I had a crappy face, I couldn't sleep well since THAT day. I can't think of a good answer for Rob rigt now.

"Yeah, I'm fine. Just s'stupid things on mind. Don't worry about me" I said looking at his navy blue eyes. I really could drawn in them. I had to practice, eventhough I'm doing well I have to be perfect.

"Then, let's go!" Music started playing and I heard a strange beat coming from the door. The music stopped and Rob looked at the door. A girl was there."Cindy, come inside!" He said cheerfully.

"Ali, you did you bun!" She said as she looked at my hair. Her blonde hair was perfectly tide up in one too. "I'm so glad you could make it! I thought you would never get one done by yourself" Her green eyes were full of passion and cheerfulness.

"Thanks, me too" I teased.

"So you are dancing with Rob" She looked at me and then at Rob, with a strange smirk. I'm not dumb, she was wondering if something was going on between us, right?

"Yeah, just that. Nothing more" I said smoothly, trying to see her reaction. She raised a brow and stopped smirking. Woow, she doesn't believe.

"I see, then I'm leaving" She walked away to the door and then turned around."Have a nice practice" Then she left.

Practice was over. I went to the Ladiesroom to check my awful face and heard some strange noises coming from one of the cabins. Someone was throughing up. The smell was awful, it  was making me do the same, but I fought it.

I waited to see who was vomiting. And to my surprise, Cindy came out.

She looked at me with shock. I don't understand why she was doing that.

"Are you 'K?" I asked softly. I have 2 theories: 1. She's pregnant. 2. Eating desorders. Or just a stomach ache.

"Yes, I'm fine" Her words sounded hopeless. I remembered that I haven't seen her eat since yesterday. I know that what I'm going to do is nosey but I'm worried.

"Did you have lunch, 'Cus I didn't see you at the cafeteria?" I said interested. She widened her eyes, she's been discovered. Yeah, I know whatcha doing!

"Stay out of my business! You have no idea the presure I have on!" She started crying." Mrs. Bahmask told me that I was fat and I wasn't jumpying high enough, so maybe I might get kicked out of the show!" She sat on the floor and hugged her knees still crying. "The more numbers go down,

The higher I can leap from the ground"

Those words were so true, many ballerinas have anorexia because the want the perfect bodies or jump higher. I couldn't believe that Cindy was one of them. I knelt next to her and hugged her.

"Doing that will not help you, just take care of yourself" I said softly. Geez I have no idea what to say, this has never happened to me before, so I have no idea what to do."Ballet is a long path and difficult, don't search for short-cuts 'cus they can take you to the wrong way. You're talented don't waste it like this!" That was the first thing that came to my mind and after I say that she looked at me  and hugged me.

"I'll start new diet and take care of myself. I'm going to jump so high next time that  might take your title as 'Prima-donna' so watch out!" She said smiling. She stood up and looked embarrassed at me "Don't tell anyone, please!"

"I won't, trust me" I said cheerfully. She walked to the door and left.

I stopped at Cream's house. I need to get answers about the ballet-anorexia and also about those feelings. You might be wondering why I haven't told her about it, but the truth is that I wasn't sure if the feelings were real or just nervous because of the ballet. Also, and because to me they were not real, I was waiting for them to leave.

I knocked the door a few times and then waited.

"Coming!" I heard someone said from the inside. The door opened and I saw Cream with an apron.

"Trying to cook again? C'mon Cream, you know there has to be a miracle, because you can't cook" I teased her. She moved and told me to come in. I did so and saw her little house just like always. It was small but neat and welcoming, just like Cream.

"Stop kidding I'm doing a great job, 'K?" She teased back."Hey, want somethin'?" She asked as se walked towards the kitchen.

"Yeah, juice. Have some?" I asked her and she nodded.

I had a glass of juice and thought about the questions. Cindy told me not tell anyone, so that out of question. Then, I have to ask her about the meaning og 'love' and 'how do you know that you're in love' questions. Awkward. How do I bring up the topic?

"What do you feel when you're in love?" I asked straightforward. Done, now she has to answer. I could see the awkwardness and embarrassment that she felt through her eyes.

"Why all of a sudden? She said looking at the oven, where a cake was being cooked. It looked nice, first time this happens. Usually all her cakes end up burning or something like that, so lets hope this one tastes good.

"Well, I just want to know" I said drinking some juice. What a terrible lie, I hope she believes it.

"Well, let's see. You trust him, talk to him like a friend, gives you these feeling of security and exciting at the same time, he's the one thing that's on your mind. Things like that, I guess" She said looking at me. I trust him, I haven't known him for long but I talk to him as a friend, he GIVES me those feelings and the K-card incident. I looked around and saw Cream taking out the cake of the oven and cutting it.

"If you want some, you'll have to wait a sec. It's hot" She said kindly.

"How do you know about love?" She blushed so hard that I could've mistaken her with a tomato. I could see her shaking a little and also looking at the floor. Could she be in love herself right now? Why was she keeping this from me?

"I-I" She started, she's not a good liar and she knew that. "I can't lie to you, I'm not good at lying so... I'll tell you the truth" She sighed and looked at me. She's so cute when she's blushing."I'm in love with someone right now, but he doesn't love me back so I'm giving up. I wish him the best, though"

I don't know what to do! I hugged her and said "Maybe he's not The One, don't worry! There are more fishes out there!" I said and she starte laughing.

We hanged out a little longer, eating cake. But truely, I was thinking about Cream's answer about love. Maybe I'm in love with Rob. But something inside me told me to wait a bit more. I've known him for only a month, this is just a crush right now. Somehow I think is something more than a crush, but still! I want to get to know him a little more as a friend first.

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Hey everyone!! This is my last day without school :(! So Tomorrow I'll tell you my uploading day!

 I took this->"The more numbers go down,The higher I can leap from the ground" From a youtuber named NeonButterflyDreamer with a video-poem called 'Ballet the beautiful pain'. Check it out!

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