Jo youngmin, yes jo youngmin you know him right?. He is my boyfriend, he so calm, cool, and so romantic person. We going to same department in our colleges, but he so busy with his carer too so he doesn’t many times for me.
As an idol girlfriend it’s so hard for me, I must hold my tears everyday because he always around many girl, I really really jealous and always hurt. I just staring at him from far place and see him aroung the girls.
This is my b’day, and he doesn’t call me. i make a little party with my family. I have told him to comin my home and he said yes, so I waiting him for this party. But 1 hour was passed and he not comin, I really sad and worried too, I have many question in my head “where is he? Why doesn’t call me? what is he doing? is he forget my b’day? Is he forget something I told him before?” And many more. I waiting him in front of the door, I really hope he comin to my home tonight or just calling meto say happy b’day or whatever he want. my mom shocked me with touch my arm “honey, lets go in, and make a wish with us, it was pas 1 hour babe, I guess he doesn’t comin here, kajja!! Don’t waiting he, he wouldn’t comin tonight, if you keep stay here you will catch a cold honey”. You look at your mom, your tears begin fallin down, “oemma, wae?? I just wanna he comin here tonight, I didn’t want more, just comin here to say happy b’day, wae he wou;dn’t comin? Wae? I never ask him to give his life for me, I never ask him to keep bring me averywhere with him, I just wanna he say happy b’day to me!! I’m his girlfriend right but wae he always make me hurt, make me cry everyday, I really hurt oemma”. I cry in my mom hug’s. it’s so warm and make me feel better.
In the morning my mom make me wake, “honey, you not have a class today? It’s was 08:00 AM”. “ah, oemma I wouldn’t comin to campus”. “keunda wae??”. “I won’t meet him today”. I keep make my eyes closed and still in my lovely bed. My mom touch my face “honey, wake up and going to campus now! Don’t do something bad because of him! You must prove to him, you are strong girl and he must feel sorry with you”. I open my eyes and look at my mom face, then smile and nod then wake up to get shower.
I’m arrive in my class and many friend said “saengil chukhahae” to me. I see youngmin here and he smile with me, I just pretend I’m not see him there. After class he walking closer with me and hold my hand, I really won’t see his eyes because it make me always melt, his eyes like eagle eyes so killing me inside, then he say “ya honey, changkaeman!!”. i just stop without staring at him then he say “mianhae about last night, I can’t comin to your home in your special day, I know you mad at me, mianhaeyo, please look at me”. “let me go”. “mwoya?? Ya please look at me” he try to catch my body and make me standing in front of him, he hold my face “look at me, I really sorry about last night, I have show and too busy to call you, I always try to find time to call you but can’t, mianhae” his eyes begin wet and his face change. I try to go and just wondering “damn, please let me go because few minute again I will forgive you”. he staring my eyes, it make me cry too, “ya younggie-ah!! Who I’m?? why you always hurting me? are you think I’m a doll? So you can be player and do like you want? ya!! Are you forget? I’m a human, this is my heart!! If you can’t taking care just let me go, it’s better than I must jealous with you everyday, so hurt everyday and feeling bad everyday! This is my heart youngi-ah! This is not a steel, this is so hurt”. I’m cry like a baby, I didn’t care anymore, many people look at us, but I can’t hold my tears anymore, he hug me in front of the class, cry and say “mianhaeso!! Jeongmal mianhaeso!! Nado arra, I just too busy taking care my career, my fans until forget about you, I always forget you always standing here waiting for me, I always let you alone and just took you in my last place, but neol, must know nan jeongmal saranghae, I swear you the one in my heart, you save in deep inside my heart, I can’t without you”. he crying, its make me so hurt more than when he leave me alone, never think about me, and around the girls, I hug him back and say “ please don’t cry younggie-ah! It make me so hurt more than when you didn’t comin to my home last night”. He hold my face “I’m to stupid because always hurting you everyday”. Then he smile and hug me again.
Today we going to celebrate my b’day, he take me by his car, he look so charming and so cute tonight, he smile when I out from my home, he catch the car door and let me in, I just staring at him and smile. As long as the way he smile and sing with his charming voice, it make me so happy.
When we arrive in the place I really excited with this place, it’s so beautiful place, he preparing candle light dinner for me, under the star, and moon light, just both of us, and it’s in high place and we can see a light town. “youngmin-ah that so beautiful place, nan jeongmal johae!! Jinjja!!”. “jinjja?? Ah I’m so happy if you like it”. He catch my body and make me staring at him, he just look at me without say anything, it’s make me feel so weird “ya!! Wae?? Something wrong? Don’t staring at me with your eagle eyes, I will fainth if you do that”. He laugh then say “you’re so beautiful”. “huh?? You just wanna say that, but you look at me like you wanna killing me, aishh!!”. He smile and hug me “ya!! Mianhae because always make you waiting me for along time and let you hurt everyday, I really sorry because of that, please don’t say let me go anymore, it hurt me so much”. “Oh, nado mianhae youngmin-ah!! Nan jeongmal mianhae was made you cry last time”. He sigh then look at my face and kiss my forehead, like usual he smile with his killing smile which make me always fallin love with him everyday. He hug me once more and say “ I can’t let you go babe, I can’t see you be other’s, I can’t let go it’s because you are my precious girl and I will never let you go, I’ll do my best for make you stay here, beside me to complete my life as long as our life ”.
Me and youngmin spend all the night under the moon light, thousand stars and up the light town, that the beautiful gift in my b’day, and I never forget today, with the one who always make me fallin love everyday.
