Dear Diary

Diary Entry #19

23rd March 2018
Friday
Fairly sunny

Dear Diary,

It's been so long since I went into her room. I always kept everything in place. I never really looked through her stuff. But today, I found this diary. It still pains me to remember how she left. I almost took my own life. But luckily, Michael was there to calm me down and to remind me to always look at the bright side. Even though no one will replace my husband...I still love Michael. He always helped me. I'm really grateful that I found him.

Why did she have to leave? Why so soon? Why? I'm crying again. I'm so weak. I have to make myself stronger. I loved her so much. Why did she have to leave me? I get that she doesn't like the fact that I'm with Michael now but he makes me happy. And no I haven't forgotten Drake. Even after he left...I still thought of him every time.

I'm sorry Jess. I'm sorry that I let you down. I'm sorry that I hadn't noticed any difference in your behaviour and what made you want to leave this world. I...I never knew...I hope you understand my point of view from wherever you are right now. I hope you see. I will forever remember you Jess. I love you.

Beth signing off...