My "Emo" Life

First time i felt loved

sorry for any mistakes and that it took so long I had writers block and could not think of a name for this chapter we first start with jj not wanting to lose Louie shocker cause Louie is a dick.

"don't open the door Louie" I whispered "shut the fuck up Joseph" he snapped back I stuck my touge out at him then he stuck his back then I stuck mine back then he snapped "you really wanna start now" "no" I said realizing that he was getting pissed "good so shut the fuck up emo fag" he said in a happy voice which really pissed me off "I'M NOT EMO" I yelled his eyes widened "your such a DUMB ASS" he yelled whispered I was so angry I didn't even care that I risked my and his life but then I was a little worried but to prove to Louie that I wasn't sacred I walk over the the door ans swung it open "WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU BOYS MAKING SO MUCH NOISE" Justine yelled I jumped back and so did Louie "WELL WHO'S GOING TO ANSWER ME IS IT GOING TO BE WANNA BE FAG (he meant  Louie) OR EMO FAG(he meant me ugh ass hole) WELL" Justine yelled louder then before "u-u-u-ummm" I stuttered "stutter much scared are you" Justine teased "me and the emo dork where just arguing and he is shocked cause I gave him a wedge like this" after Louie finished his sentence he reach down my pants (which where skinny jeans so Ya know it was hard to get the wedgie out) and ripped up my boxers again "STOP-P-P-P" I cry yelled Justine just laugh and took another picture and patted Louie on the back I cried on the inside cause Justine (my daddy) always defended me when it came to Louie but this time he took Louie's side which hurt more then my increasing wedgie "please stop" I cried out Louie let go then said "ok fine emo baby get out of my room before I change my mind" "NOW" he barked I ran up the stares the last thing I heard before I broke down was Justine and Louie laughing I just ran to my room slammed my door and locked it then I heard Justine yell up the stares "you slam that door again I'll give you a reason to slam it" so I went on my bed screamed in to my pillow then Justine yelled again "ok baby you wanna scream" I heard foot steps coming up the steps so I yelled "I'M SORRY NOW GO AWAY" "that's what I thought" he snapped back good I did that cause he was right outside my door when I heard him go down I layed in my bed and  cried myself to sleep then I jumped up and was thinking to myself why would my own father betray me like that why why why I just kept screaming these things in my head I hate Justine I hate Louie I hate LIFE UGHHHHHHH I kept screaming in my mind till I finally went back to sleep when I woke up I looked at the clock 12:37pm(the next day) shit Justine doesn't like us sleeping past 10 oh well what's the worst that could happen I went down stares for breakfast well just to eat toast but still I was in the kitchen toasting my bread when Justine came up behind me "all your eating is toast really" Justine asked in a are you kidding me way "yea why got a problem with it" I snapped at him "go sit down" he said pointing towards the table "bu" he cut me off "NOW" he yelled "ok ok fine" I said walking towards the table "dame back talker  one of these days it's going to get you in trouble" he said getting a pan out of the dishwasher "ya ya ya" I said sitting down on a nice chair as farthest away from Justine's chair as I could (ya he's wired we all have assigned chairs for dinner but I don't go to dinner so I just sit where ever when I do come down) but my plan failed when he came back with this huge breakfast 10 eggs 30 pieces for toast 3 cup of juices 2 cups of milk 4 pans of bacon 17 piece of cold pizza with salt on it (my favorite) "Umm Justine I think this is too much" I said looking a the huge breakfast he sat next to me (fuck) "it's ok EAT IT ALL" he snapped "but" I tried to say but he stood up grabbed me by my hood and lifted me up stood me up riped my hoodie and shirt up and punched my flat anorexic stomach "OWWWWWWWW" I yelled "I know you don't eat do I have to feed you" Justine said in a calm quiet voice so my sister's and brothers wouldn't hear "ok" he snapped a little louder squeezing my arm with my cuts on it (yes self injury I cut don't judge if you had my life you would too) "ow ow ow ow yes I'll eat I'll eat ow" I said back holding the tears from falling out "good boy now sit the fuck down and eat" he said in a scary calm voice I sat down and started to eat everything it took 9 1/2 hours he wouldn't leave till I was done If I went to the bathroom and throw up he'd make more if I went to the bathroom to go to the bathroom he'd time me and if he thought I was throwing up more would be on my plate when I came out it was terrible TERRIBLE after I eat everything I asked to lay on the couch cause I didn't want to walk up a lot of flights of stares "sure son I get you a pillow and blanket" he said walking towards the basement door I walked to the couch and layed down I fell asleep and when I woke up I was in my bed with a trash can next to me full of throw up which I did again when I looked at the trash can then I rolled over and saw that Justine was laying next to me holding me he was a good dad hafe the time this was the first time in 14 years I felt love for a father figure MY FATHER MY FATHER I just love saying my father my dad my daddy MINE sorry off track I cuddle with Justine as long as I could before I fell asleep cuddling with my daddy best night ever (tell anyone and I'll kill you all) I woke up still cuddling with Justine I was so happy till I turned and saw Louie he whispered "awwwww who's daddy's little baby smile" and took pictures of me and justine which would ruin my rep In the gang world I tried to get up but Justine grip was too tight I struggled but no luck so I stoped and just turned around so Louie won't see my face I buried my face in Justine's chest and hugged him till I fell back asleep again.