The story on my body

life's okay

Raven's POV:

        Ever since I got to know Alex my life has been okay. But that didn't stop me from cutting. I would wake up in the middle of the night because, of my night terrors. I would have flashbacks of horrible things . I would wake up crying and sweating in my bed. I'm too afraid to sleep he's taken over my dreams, the only place where I can escape from him. What do I have left?

        I jump out of bed and look at the alarm clock. It's 2 in the morning, I only had one hour of sleep. I trip over my laptop and fall to the floor, luckily my floor has carpet so the fall didn't hurt too much. I closed my eyes and I had a flashback. He tried to touch me, I back away from him. I run into the closet holding my breath so he wouldn't find me. He's looking for me. He opens the closet door and grabs me by the arms. I open my eyes glad that it was over. I rush over to my dresser and open the third drawer and go to the bottom. I found my knife and stared at it. I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes. I looked down at my arms. I couldn't hold it anymore I sobbed. I sliced the knife into my skin until I felt numb. I fell to the ground sobbing until I felt like the memory was far away from me.

        My day at school was not much better. I ate lunch with Alex well she ate lunch while I just picked at mine. I guess she could tell something was wrong.

        "Are you okay?" Alex snaps in my face to wake me up from my trance. I stare at her for a minute and nod in response."Bull crap!" Alex looks at me with concern written all over her face. "I can tell if something's wrong you can't play the 'I'm okay' crap. I have to protect you if I don't know what's wrong, then how am I to help you?" I thought about it for awhile. How can she help me? Eventually I gave in and told her, everything. After I was done I looked away because, I didn't want to see her reaction to everything.

        It felt like forever that I got the courage to look at her. She looked at me and hugged me. I felt my face grow red. I've never felt like this, the loveliness of someone's embrace. I held onto her. She smelled nice like roses. I then felt something, she kissed the top of my head. I couldn't control it, so I blushed so much I looked like a tomato. We eventually let go and I kept my head low until I felt like my redness went down.

        "I'm sorry, I thought you know you need some comforting." I looked at Alex, her face was flushed also.

        "It's okay, thank you for being here with me" I touch my head on the place where she kissed me. It felt like her lips were still there.

        "Yeah"

        I looked around and it seemed as though everyone was staring at us. I felt my face grow warm. Alex leans over and whispers in my ear "let's get out of here before people think we're planning to bomb the school" I nod and we get up and throw away our trash. I walk behind her wanting to feel secure. I finally got the courage and held her hand. She was a little taken back but continued to walk with me holding my hand. Everyone stared at us but I didn't care. I could feel myself smile for the first time.