The story on my body

Could I be in love?

Alex's POV:

        It's been 2 months since I started being Raven's protector. I hate to admit it but I love that girl. I don't want to say I'm Lesbian I mean I've slept with guys so I wouldn't technically be Lesbian. Since I met Raven I guess you can say I kinda straightened up. I stopped smoking and drinking. I couldn't believe I kissed Raven on the head. Why did I do that? What came over me? I'm just glad that me and Raven don't have anymore secrets. Ever since she told me that she cuts I gave her my number and told her to call or text me if she ever had the urge to cut. It killed me that she was like this but I couldn't leave her, I love her.

        It was about midnight when she called me. I was half asleep as I picked up the phone. She was crying and I could hear my heart break.

        "Raven calm down" I say

        "Alex please come over I need you the urge to cut is strong and I need you" She's still crying as she talks to me.

        "I'll be there in 5 minutes" I hang up and jump out of bed to get dressed. I put on my shoes and ran down stairs. When I passed by the living room the TV was still on and my mom was passed out on the couch with a beer in her hand. I could feel a frown grow on my face as I saw her. I slowly walked over and turned of the TV and walked out the front door. 

        I only had to walk 2 blocks to get to Raven's house. I knew I couldn't go through the front door because it was locked so I jumped over the fence. Her backyard looked like a typical backyard a flower bed and a swing set. I knew her room was upstairs so I threw a rock at her window. Not even a minute later Raven opens the window and tells me to come up. I climb the side of her house by the time I get through the window and into her room I'm exhausted. I lay on the ground for a minute to catch my breath. Eventually I get up and I walk over to Raven. I hold her tight. She sobs and I hold her and I don't let go until she tells me it's okay. She looks at me. Her beautiful blue eyes are swollen from crying and her pale white cheeks are red. I brush my hand against her cheek. She looks up at me and gives me a light smile.

        "You have a beautiful smile, you don't need to hide it" I had no control over what I said and all of the sudden it all comes out. " You know it's kind of surprising that you don't have a boyfriend by now when you're so beautiful and deserved to be loved".

        "I don't like guys very much and guys don't like me that's just how it goes plus who could ever love me when I have scars all over my body? Right no one." I couldn't help it. I had to tell her how I feel or I would never get a better opportunity.

        "Raven someone does love you, someone cares for you and wants you to feel happy and protected, and that someone is me" I held my breath wanting to let my words swallow me whole. she sat there and looked at me. I wanted to leave so I got up and headed towards the window. I then felt a hand on my wrist which made me stop and turn around when I did she kissed me. Not on my cheek or my forehead or my head but right on the lips. She's a little shorter than me but I hold the sides of her face and pull her closer to me. Next thing I know we are on her bed making out. I hold her and once we release we are both trying to catch out breath.

        "I want you to be there with me. I don't want you to leave my side please stay with me." Raven sits on her bed. I look at her, I can't get over how beautiful she is. She was so cute she had on panda nightshirt and matching pants.

        "I'll lay with you then if you need me then I'm right there okay?" I take off my jacket and Raven gets into bed and scoots over to make room for me. I hold her close and kiss her goodnight. She falls asleep and I now know what love feels like.