hindsight 20/20*

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You had me hit the ground running.

I wanted to stay.
I longed for it.

But when the ball was in my court, that's when I decided to let it pass. I decided to lose this one.

Sometimes I wonder if you knew the weight of the choices you made. Or was it just another reckless one you made on a whim?

It doesn't matter anymore.
All I know is that I tried my best.

Every day I look back and realize the good things I've done while allowing myself to be walked all over like a rug. I pitied myself as the bad guy in the story at first. I only seemed to see the terrible things I did in the past that led to the outcome of how things are now.

But my heart is s l o w l y changing. My mind is moving forward. My life is coming through. There's a sure contrast between my hollowed self and the current person of who I am.

Yet I can't help but wonder

It's a habit of my heart

I can't help but wonder

If you're going to return at all.

Oh well

It's none of my business anymore.

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