Your last day

Chapter 3

So began another day of my so called life did I really believe I'd find love? Not one bit and stayed my single life because I was done with lies and everything else I wanted to actually end my life again. But I didn't at least not yet anyway I was actually in college at this moment I need to get my g.e.d because I wanted a job but the job I wanted made u have to go to college I wanted to be a vetreian because I loved animals so much that when I got to work with them and make that happy I knew I was doing something good but to be honest college was a hell all though you did however get a room mate boy or girl to be honest I got my crush James hes fucking hot *-* I can't even speak around him I freeze up and just stand there he thinks I'm weird witch sucks he never even talks to. Its fucking high school all over again like wtf. Maybe if I actually got out of my shell around him would he know I like him alot but I'm so damn scared of falling in love thats its pushed me to not wanna love ever again not after what happened to my husband....after he passed I haven't gotton the strength to actually love anyone anymore its so hard and my kids oh how I miss them they were not ready to pass away or be gona from my hands after all that I moved out of that house as u can probably see already there's just to many memories I don't wanna be around yea some are good and some are bad but there is ones I never wish to see in my life all of a sudden the lights go out and u can see a shadow moving and here a noise kinda like the grunge I start freaking out it goes black I'm now in a dark room alone no one just me and creepy paintings on the wall then someone walks in and all goes black again

Sorry to stop right on a good part guys but I haven't slept and I'm pretty tierd plus school has me going like crazy with my grades I'll do chapter 4 either later on today or start it in 6th love you my potatoes