I've been debating on whether I should publish this or not but what do I have to lose? So yup, you see right here people. My birthday. Whoo... Sweet 16...
Meh
I'm honestly not a fan of birthdays. I'm not talking about other people's birthdays, I like to say happy birthday to them and be on my merry way but more on the lines of mine in particular.
People always say or ask me, "Why don't you like your birthday?" or "It's a time to celebrate! Don't be down!"
Then there's my mind and brain that tells me, "Oh, another year being older and another year being closer to death. Aren't you excited for that?!" Yeah, my mind is pretty dark at times.
I wouldn't have mind it, I would just carry on with my day like I usually would. Unless I'm being a sleepy drunk and make another online friend then eh, what can I do about it?
I'm rambling a bit and you're probably wondering where I'm going with all this. Don't lie, I know you were thinking that lol.
The main reason why I don't like my birthday is that it's another reminder how my parents really didn't want me in the first place. They're fine now, getting over the fact that I'm a mistake and that they have to put up with me.
It doesn't help that they don't remember my birthday either. Practically nobody does. It's gone to the point where even I've forgotten my birthday at times. I only remembered because I brought up my gmail inbox and saw that Wattpad said happy birthday to me.
Wow, this is getting pretty sad but I felt like I had to say something about it. Ugh jeez, sappy moments. Not my thing XD
On the bright side, I walked over to GameStop and bought myself a new Final Fantasy game. I was extremely conflicted between Final Fantasy and Shadow of the Colossus but I chose Final Fantasy because I knew about it first.
Decisions, decisions. The things we have to decide on that could possibly ruin all humanity.
I won't be surprised if that happened.
~And scene~
