Desperate for your love j.jk {COMPLETED}

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It's currently midnight, I'm sitting on the couch waiting for him to come home again. This is the usual routine i have to go through every night. This time though, this time is different.

I have been contemplating whether i should do this or not, but I've had enough, every night he comes home drunk smelling like women's perfume. I choose to ignore it, why you ask? because i love him too much to just let him go.

some times i feel like he does it on purpose, as if he knows that i won't break up with him, I'm sure he knows how pathetic i am to hold on to this already falling apart relationship.

tonight is the night, I've had enough and i need him to know that. For some reason he's been completely ignoring me, i can't recall the reason why though.

I'm about to give up and go to bed when i hear the sound of keys jingling just outside the door.
I take in a deep breath. I had written down my speech on a piece of paper and had memorised what i was gonna say a few hours back.

"Don't start forgetting what you were going to say" i mumbled to myself, smacking the side of my head.

"Stay calm"

The door slowly opened as he came in stumbling, muttering stupidly. His clothes looked like a mess, buttons were done wrong, hair a mess, and what is that i smell? women's perfume. This happens almost every night, I'm starting to get suspicious, is he doing this himself?

snap out of it, stay serious. he pushed past me going up the stairs. "Jungkook" i whispered.
he continued walking up the stairs, not even stopping for a second.

"Jungkook" this time i said it louder, anger clearly heard in my tone. "I know you can hear me" this time he turned around, irritated.

"What do you want" he spoke eyes tiredly staring into my own, "I'm tired" he huffed becoming impatient.

"I want to talk" i stepped back ushering him to come down stairs, he stood there before shaking his head.

"we can talk tomorrow, I'm sure it's not that important" he shrugged it off turning back around.

"You know what? I'm done. I'm over it Jungkook, go to sleep but i expect you out of the house by tomorrow morning" that's it, i gave up the speech before storming into the kitchen. I've had enough of his lack of interest and attitude towards me. It's hurting me.

"what?" he came down the stairs turning towards me shocked, that seemed to wake him up. "what? baby please no" he pleaded.

"Jungkook I'm not your mum, I'm not here to just pay the rent and cook you food. I'm your girlfriend and you're clearly cheating on me. I know I've been ignoring it for the past few months, and i understand that didn't help this relationship at all. But I'm done now, I'm over it. This relationship Jungkook, you and i, me and you it doesn't exist".

Tears fell from my eyes as i walked away, pushing past him i grabbed my keys heading straight for the front door. "wait, where are you going?" he questioned his voice low.

"I'm staying elsewhere tonight, i need to stay away from you before you persuade me to stay" i sniffed opening the door.

"you don't have to do this" he whispered, i turned around glaring at him. "I don't have to do this?" I laughed, "tell me, what should i do then?" he shook his head coming closer.

"you think you've affected me? you think i care that you just ended our relationship? well jokes  on you, i couldn't care any less. Now if you'll excuse me I've got places to be and pretty girls to be with" he aggressively turned around and ran upstairs. Grabbed his things before throwing his keys at me and leaving for good.

i slowly slid down onto the ground sobbing, slowly starting to regret everything that had just happened. "I'm so stupid, i should've just gone to sleep"

i slowly got up, walking to our once shared bedroom. Getting in bed, i did nothing that night except cry myself to sleep.

"i hate everything you've put me through Jungkook, but i cant seem to stop loving you"