Dancing To The Tune Of The Unsung Songs

The End: Start Of A New Beginning

Let me begin from the end where a new beginning was born.

I walked the earth a lonely soul. Conceived and molded in a conservative unit called family. I was brought up full of love and security. Taught the importance of unity and priorities. My family was the seed of my confidence and my strenght for survival.

I was guarded from the danger of reality and was protected from the harm of the outside world.

Until one day what's eating me inside crawled, fought and made its way out. Then I yearned to learn the truth.

My family decided to trust me enough and let me go on a journey. I was enrolled to the course about the study of life.

With the foundation of core values, I became a knowing ignorant. An uneducated genius.

I lived by the book. I know things but not through experience.

I see, hear, and learn a lot of things. But I dared not live them. I lived in the shadows, I cowered in limelight.

Don't get me wrong, I still do.

I'd let you know more about it. But let me start off by telling you about important people I met along the way.

I was so ecstatic about my freedom. I was so fascinated by what's coming to me, and I admit I was a little scared...

Okay, okay... I was really scared. But that didn't stop me. I was armed with curiosity.

Then one day, I chanced upon getting to know Friendship. She was very fond of life, so full of it. Shared the beauty of sharing and kindness to others.

Friendship became my reliable company. My trustworthy confidante. She watered the seed of confidence planted in me and slowly taught me to blossom and grow.

I had become so excited and very eager to explore the world ahead of me.

Friendship was with me every step of the way. We grew together.

And that's when solitude ended.

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I was slowly coming out of my comfort zone. Very careful with each step. Cautious to cause anything that would draw attention, especially from unwelcomed ones.

I tried to observe what's outside. Not everything looked very nice.

But, who am I to say that? For someone who only learned about almost everything out of theories, I've got  no right to decide which was wrong or right. I could only remain careful so as to not endanger my very self.

Something caught my curiousity. I saw a group of girls going, swaying and staggering, towards the same direction, and they were humming the same tune. It was so loud, enticing and stinging. I could see them holding something of dark color where they seemed to be drinking something from and get themelselves drowned with.

I almost got hypnotized and started to go to the very direction they were heading for, hadn't I got tripped over something that I didn't know what and caused me to stumble and fall.

Someone grabbed my wrist and helped me stand up again.

The group of girls could have heard my squeal as I fell down for they stopped and looked my direction. One even asked: "Aren't you going to join us?" and started to get near me and reached for my other free hand.

"NO! She's not going to go anywhere but to where she could be safe and away from you!"

I was so startled not only for what the other person said but for what she did, going in front of me as if she's protecting me from an attacker.

The one who came near was so shocked, and the only thing she was able to do was shrug her shoulder.

"C'mon! The Boss is waiting! I wouldn't wanna be late again, if I were you...", said one of the girls and pulled the speechless one away, and they went away.

When the girls were gone, the one who helped me up started leaving, too.

"Wait! Don't leave me..."

She continued walking as if she didn't hear me.

Not being fully recovered with what just happened, or as if my feet have a life of their own, I started walking the same path she's taking... Following her footsteps.

Then, she may have gotten so conscious of a shadow going wherever she's going, she turned around and looked at me with a bewildered eyes.

"Why do I have a feeling that you're following me?"