I am screaming as they pull the tube from my throat and start blending more of the food that was on the table next to me. I struggle to get free of the wrist cuffs holding me down and the soft padding mocks me. I can't get out and I am forced to sit and watch her suffer.... I close my eyes and try to remember a better time. When we were laughing in the school courtyard making videos for something that we would never show the world. Laughing as we walked down to the movies with my boyfriend and her crush. Remembering the small arguments we had had and how stupid they seem now. Most of all remembering all the time that she had been there for me and her being the best friend I had ever had. Her listening to everything I would say and My being a total bitch and interrupting her all the time and not listening. I can never take that back. I don't even have the chance to apologize. Tears escape my eyes and run down to my chin then fall to their deaths as they hit the ground and are absorbed into the cold ground below me. I open my eyes to see her struggling to say something to me. I can't understand her. I hear a bone chilling scream and I cower back before I realize the noise is coming from me. They have fully broken me.
"Get her help and I will do anything. Anything I swear, Please just get her help." I am trying anything. They all nod and let me out of the god damn chair. I run over to her and grab her before she falls. I look her in the eyes and I see the light leave her eyes slowly as she tries to talk.
"It's all your fault."I see the light leave her eyes for the last time and I fall. Fall to the ground holding her and everything seems to be in slow motion. Time freezes as the world around me stops. She's really gone and it is all my fault. All my fault.
They try to drag me away from her but I fight and scream until I am too weak to move. They eventually just let me be, sitting there crying and holding my now dead best friend. I hear a guard say "pathetic" before they leave. There is only one other person here and that is my guard. I could take her. If only this had been a couple days earlier. I could have gotten her out. But I couldn't get her out. I couldn't get her to safety. I failed her. I'm so sorry.
