It's Complicated Love (Crankiplier) Book 1

Chapter 1 - Loud

Mark

I was really bored. I had nothing to do. I was just scrolling through YouTube, trying to find something to watch or be inspired by. Then, I saw him. He was a young boy. His face had quite a lot of acne. Other than that, I could go as far as to say that he was cute. He looked happy. I clicked on his video. "WHAT IS UP MY CRANKY CREW! It's Ethan from Crank Gameplays and today..." I turned the volume down a bit. Wow, he was really loud. He actually reminded me of Jack. I miss him. I can't get over him, but I had to. I snapped out of my memories and focused solely on this...Ethan. He had cool blue hair and this really adorable laugh. "Fucking GOOO!" Ethan cried out. I couldn't help but chuckle. I have to see this kid. I might be able to get over Jack after all, I thought. Before I just call him out of the blue (no puns intended), I watched a few more videos of him. After a while he started to look familiar. I have seen him before....but where? My mind was glued to that one question. Where have I seen him before?

My mind started to race. I was thinking of any fans that I ran into or that have came up to me. I couldn't seem to remember. "I'll figure it out eventually," I casually said to myself. I pushed the thought to the back of my mind and focused on my fans. They were waiting for me.

I went into my recording room. I stood there and took a deep breathe. As I exhaled, he popped into my mind. "Damn you, Jack!" I muttered. We honestly didn't want to break up. Truly, we didn't. He lived in Ireland and I was in here. I loved my home here in America and Jack loved his home in Ireland. We couldn't keep up with the long distance relationship. I hated to see Jack cry as he said those heartbreaking words to me.

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"Jack! Why are you upset? Did someone hurt you? Do I need to-" Jack interrupted me. "No, Mark....I'm crying because I am doing something that I am going to regret for the rest of my life." Jack fumbled with a few things nearby then inhaled deeply. All at once he spewed them out. "We've been together for quite some years, Mark, and I really hate doing this, but I think you and I can both agree that this long distance relationship isn't working at all. So, therefore, it's best if we end things here." I stared at the screen. Jack began to sob loudly. I wanted to be there with him and hold him, but I couldn't. Not anymore. My eyes began to sting and swell with tears. I knew that Jack was right, but I still didn't want to let him go. I love him. I will always love him.

I shook myself out of my thoughts then grabbed the edges of the computer screen as if trying to hold Jack's face in my hands. "Jack, I can't deny that. I don't want to lose you though. I-" I began to choke back tears. "Jack, I love you with all my heart. I will never find anybody like you. I will always love you and you will always be mine." Jack's sobs got even louder. "And I will always love you too. No one can replace you! I am always yours and you are always mine! I will never let you go!" He sputtered through his sobs. I was beginning to worry. Jack was sobbing so hard, he was gasping for air. I couldn't see him like this. As if reading my mind, he said one last thing before the screen went black. "I'm sorry, Mark, I love you with all my heart. I know we will be together again. Just you wait! Goodbye." And the screen went black

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I shook my head. My eyes were soar and my face felt stiff. That was when I realized that I was crying. "Ugh, c'mon, big guy, suck it up!" I wiped away the tears and took deep breathes while I brought everything up. While I was waiting for my camera to start up, I fanned my face and rubbed my eyes. Then, I looked at the reflection of myself off of my phone screen. I looked tired. Good. Then as I began to record, I went through my normal routine.