More than a memory

Chapter 9

Beca rolled over in her bed and stared up at the ceiling. The chilly air whipped at her exposed shoulders and she cursed herself for not wearing something warmer to bed. The urge to curl back up under the blankets and sleep the frigid winter day away was strong but she was pulled further from the warmth of her bed by the ringing of her cellphone. If it wasn't for those first notes of "Titanium" she probably would have ignored it but that particular song let her know she wanted to talk to the person on the other end.

"Hey Chloe," Beca chirped into the receiver. It was abnormal for her early on a Sunday morning to be so chipper but she couldn't help it.

"Good morning love," Chloe said, matching her girlfriend's perky tone.

"To what do I owe this pleasure?"

"I just wanted to hear your voice. I miss you and it's Sunday."

"It is indeed Sunday," Beca replied, sighing heavily.

"Hey now," the red head chided, "none of that. Two minutes ago you were thrilled to hear from me."

"That was before you reminded me that it's Sunday which means it's another day that I don't get to see you. I know Sundays are important to you so the kids know you're still a family and I think that's great. I just don't get to see you a lot throughout the week you know and I didn't see you yesterday because you were at your parent's house. I miss you like crazy is all."

"I know babe, I know and I miss you too. I promise I'll see you soon though. Try to have a good day okay."

Before Beca could even say goodbye she heard the click and knew Chloe had already hung up. She had to resist the urge to throw the damn thing across the room. She hated to whine to Chloe because she understood that her girlfriend had a family and that they were more important, but it was frustrating nonetheless. During the week her kids stayed with her at the house so unless they met for a lunch date during the day or the kids had extracurricular activities Beca didn't see her. On Sundays Chloe insisted on having dinner at the house with the kids and Tom. It was important to her that her kids still had a sense of home of family despite their situation. This left only Saturdays for them to really see each other and it seemed like every other Saturday Chloe had other commitments. There were dinners with her family, work functions, tee ball games, dance lessons; the list seemed endless to Beca. It's not that it bothered her that Chloe had other things to do; just that she couldn't really be a part of them. Sometimes she just felt so separate from Chloe's life she wasn't sure they could ever work.

Before the brunette could take out her frustration on any of her possessions there was a knock at her door. Who the hell would be knocking this early, Beca groaned as she stood up. It was either someone trying to convert her or someone trying to sell something to her and she wasn't in the mood for either.

"What the heck do you want?" Beca started shouting before she even opened her front door.

Instead of being met with a stunned worshipper or salesman though Beca was staring into the loving eyes of her girlfriend. Chloe didn't look at all shocked by her girlfriend's ranting, in fact she was actually laughing.

"Were you expecting someone else?" Chloe teased.

It took Beca a second to register the situation but eventually she was able to speak.

"I thought you were spending the day with your family."

"I'll have dinner with them later. Now though, I want to spend the morning with my girlfriend. I even brought bagels and cream cheese."

"My favourite," Beca beamed.

After the shock finally wore off Beca stepped out of the door way and allowed the red head entrance. Her smile only widened when she received a sweet kiss on the cheek. It had been just over a week since she'd last seen her girlfriend but to Beca it seemed like forever. It was funny to her how they had gone almost ten years without seeing each other and things were fine but these days even 10 hours without Chloe was painful. It was the way Beca felt when she was around Chloe, so happy and alive. It was a way she hadn't felt in years and she was enjoying every second of it. The last 6 months with Chloe made her wonder how she had ever spent 6 years with Jesse. He never made her feel the way Chloe did, it was like she had been sleepwalking and now she was finally awake again.