Important A/N at the bottom. Plz read..
Mark💪🏻
How's the flight?
Mark💪🏻
Are they treating you right?
Mark💪🏻
Do I need to go up there and kick some ass?
Mark💪🏻
Are you drinking enough water?
Mark💪🏻
Are you by the window? How's the view?
Mark💪🏻
Are you having a good time?
Mark💪🏻
I can't wait until you're here.
Mark💪🏻
Are you getting up a lot and bugging the people around you?
Mark💪🏻
Is there a little kid kicking the back of your seat? Is there one in front of you?
Jack🍀
JESUS MARK!
Jack🍀
leT ME SLEEP
Mark💪🏻
Oh...
Mark💪🏻
Oh shit. Sorry
Jack🍀
Fucking arse
Mark💪🏻
I said I was sorry
Jack🍀
Good night!
Mark💪🏻
Fine damn sorry
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Hey guys.
Sorry about this short chapter.
Long time no talk or update..
I'm super sorry about that btw. I've just been super busy with school and I'm super stressed. My depression is being a bitch. My anxiety hits me at random times sometimes. My anorexia isn't helping much either. I'm probably failing like 3 classes and 1 of my friends are sad because she knows I like her and that I want to date her but last time I dated someone I was really close to, I can't talk to them without crying now and I don't want that with her.
I'm trying to find motivation and energy to write and life.
I have a crush on this guy and I know he's hiding stuff. He always looks so sad and whenever I ask him if he's okay he tells me yes but I know he's lying.
But I just, I shouldn't like him. He's not good enough for me. He's toxic. I shouldn't want to touch his dirty blonde hair. I shouldn't want to look in his chocolate brown eyes, that I know holds so many secrets. I shouldn't want to figure out those secrets. I shouldn't want to hold his hand. I shouldn't want to be around him. I shouldn't want to hear his jokes. I shouldn't feel responsible for his happiness because he probably doesn't care about mine. I shouldn't feel like I have to make him smile when I can see he's so close to crying. I shouldn't smile when I see him smile or hear him laugh. I shouldn't spend all night thinking about him. I shouldn't get jealous because Devin knows him better. I shouldn't get sad when I remember he'll never date me because we are nothing a like. I shouldn't like him. He's toxic. I shouldn't feel like his lying when he tells me that he's ok. He's toxic. I shouldn't want to change myself for him. He's toxic.
I've painted my nails to match his phone case, to see if he'll notice. I've joined groups he's in. I've laughed at his jokes. I've talked to him. I've checked up on him. I've tried to motivate him in pe. I've tried flirted with him. I've always smiled at him when he's caught me looking at him, or when he smiled at me or I see him in the hallways. I've jokingly insulted him. I've tried to impress him by answering math problems in class. I've tried not to bring up the fact that I like him whenever he's around. I've tried to look pretty for him. I've tried in pe to try and get his attention. I've tried to be bit more like the girls he talks to and flirts with. I've tried to joke with him. I've tried to make him feel better. I've watched his back when he was doing things the teacher told him not too. I've complimented him and his music taste (which is 10/10). I've tried so much which is so stupid because he'll never like me back. I've tried to be someone he would date. And I've failed every time...
God I'm like venting so much. I'm so sorry. I bet no one even read that completely through.. Ugh I'm sorry guys.
I'm trying to get this story back on track so if you have ideas please don't be afraid to DM them to me. And if you have covers for this, or any of my stories, send them to my Instagram ( @just_your_fairly_local_gay_cx ) [!!check my bio just in case I've changed it!!]. I'll follow back and maybe even use it. If you need someone to ever talk to I'm here and I always will be. If you message me and I don't answer right away it's because I don't get notifications for my messages but I'll be checking them.
I love you all and thank you so much for actually stay with story even tho it's complete shit.
I wish I was cuddling you instead of this cat 🐈
