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staying up late every night just trying to get my head right. everything i think about somehow takes me back to you. you can just never leave my head can you? is it like your new home? because you cant seem to leave it. i can absolutely think about anything and everything and it always finds its way to you. it kills me honestly, it honestly kills me. my heart aches for you, my heart aches for your love. it aches because you just walked out on such short notice. why dont you seem to care? god i wish you loved me like i love you. i regret ever taking breaks from you because im making up for the pain now. this is revenge isnt it? ive always regretted taking breaks away from you but i always came back didnt i? you know why? because youre my home. my heart knew you were the one the night we started texting. March 27,2015 i fell deeply in love with you and i will never forget that day because thats the night we both confessed we liked eachother but i wanted to tell you i loved you right away but i didnt have the balls. god i wish i could go back and start it all over again. i wish you still wanted me, i feel worthless and i want to feel wanted... but only by you. you never thought you were good enough for me.. you always thought i'd leave you for someone better but you know what? thats whats going through my head because nobody is better than you at this point. nobody can ever top you or replace you and id never want them to. i guess im just trying to say i miss you... but you dont care.