My New Secret Life

Chapter 8

Nikole's outfit for her date with Connor.
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It was Sunday and I was going on a date with Connor. I don't know what to feel about this! Should I just tell him that I'm doing this just because I was dared? Or should I tell him the truth, that I really like him?!

Well I like him but......I don't like the fact that I like him. My heart broke because of love. Love hurts. After my heart broke I went to New York to become independent and stop feeling so much. I wanted to turn off my feelings and I reached that by working hard. But I think Connor Fields is ruinning my hard work. I'm not gonna let another guy break my heart again.

And.....I'm obbsesed with his blue eyes. But I don't know why?! I mean, I have blue eyes myself!

My phone makes a noise and I go to check. Connor had texted me: 'I'll come pick you up at 20:00.' It was morning so I had enough time to do whatever I wanted. So I call Caroline.

"Hi Caroline, want to go for a walk with me?" I ask her on the phone.
"Sure!" She answers and we meet at Sturbucks. We grab a drink and go for a walk.

"I'm so exciting for you and Connor today. I'm jealous of you, you've found someone you love and Connor loves you too. You are amazing together!" Caroline says to me and I put my head down as I blush.

God, I never blush. I never even blushed when I was with Chad. But I hope she didn't see me and say: "Caroline, I don't love him and how do you even know that he loves me?!"

"Well at first don't lie, I saw you blushing. Call it whatever you want, crush, fancy or I don't know, but the truth is that you love me. I'm not trying to push you but I saw it. I saw how you looked at him yesterday and how you both kissed. It was epic!" Caroline says keeping her hand in my shoulder. As much as I wanted to disagree.....I couldn't. She was right. I really love him. I maybe always did but yesterday........I was sure about it.

"But you didn't say, how do you know Connor loves me?" I ask.
"Well after you left, Ben and him were talking and I heard him saying how beautiful you are and amazing, but at the same time mysterious. Connor said that he liked that and he told Ben that he knew he was in love with you since the first day of school. Belive me, it really sounded like those words came from his heart!"

I can't belive it, he really loves me! But I don't think I should just fall in his arms just because I know that. I need to make sure that I can trust him, for real.

I ate lunch at a restaurant with Caroline and we were just talking about each other lives. Caroline's life seemed a lot like mine. She told me so much about herself and from what I heard I knew that I could trust her. Mabey, I could share my life with her too. Caroline's uncle had a gang so she would understand me.

I start excplaining her my life, I say to her that I go street fighting too. But afer I opened up I make sure that she knows that bad things will happen if she tells anyone about what we talked. But I could tell she was believable.

I also ask her for an advice. 'Should I keep fighting with Connor?' She says that if Connor loved me and nothing is gonna happen even if I keep fighting with him. She also said that she liked different couples and we could become a fighting couple, so we would be different.

It was 18:30 and I go home to get ready for my date. Mom knew that I was going on a date. My dad and brother weren't even home, luckily, because then they would reconize Connor. So here comes another secret, me and Connor. Well, I have an interesting life. But strangely, I liked it.

I curled my hair and chose a black top and skirt with a black jacket. I did my makeup and was looking for Connor to come. From my window I see Connor's car come as he walks to our door. Actully he was 10 minutes early, but anyways, he was here! I open the door and smile.

"You're early." I say as I smile again at him.
"You're gorgeus!" He replies smiling.
"Thanks, you don't look bad yourself neither." I say as I blush a little. God, I blushed again!

We both get out of my house and get in his car.
"So where are we going?" I ask.
"It's a suprise!" Connor answers.
"Is it far away?" I ask again
"Mabey! Why, is it a problem?" Connor asks.
"No! Actully it's better if it is far." I say as I stare at him.

I was really curious where he had planed our date!