Maybe there was a reason behind it.

I'm sorry....

And it all began... within a matter of seconds I was trapped into a situation where I couldn't ever get back out of, unless I somehow managed to go back in time and undo what I just done, but I know, that simply isn't possible as much as I know that what I just did was going to hunt me down for some time.

The minute I pressed that send button my body started shaking, my bare cold body, sitting on the edge of my bed staring into the mirror inside my wardrobe door, which only looked back at me with disgust of my actions. Never before had I felt so used by anything or anybody the way I do now. Is like I was a doll and all he had to do is move me around to get what he wanted and I didn't have a say on it.

I was so scared to look back at my reflection in the mirror, knowing that if I did all I would see is the pain in my face that I could just feel building up. The tears flooding my eyes and my stomach split in half as I bend over myself to try and cover my freezing naked body. I gave a glance back at my phone, which is now laying on my flowery bed sheets as I realize that everything around me will never be me again, the blue on my walls I didn't deserve and the flowers on my curtains were now too young for my mature actions.

In a matter of seconds I find myself looking back at my childhood memories and remembering why everything in my room is the way it is, how I've asked for everything to be there, those colors and those patrons, it was all my idea and now my own actions have turned everything I have down, now it's all gone... I shake the thoughts out of my head as I switch my focus back to my phone, I quickly go to check the time when I find myself reading the message on my lock screen...

" wow, i acc thought u was good lookin but nvm that, eww "

I throw my phone across my bed in fear almost, maybe ashamed, I'm not quite sure about anything right now... in seconds I feel my eyes fill up with tears as I hear my phone go off again, I try to look at the message from where I'm sitting so I don't have to unfold my naked body which was well wrapped around my own self, pulling myself up a little to try and see better as I try forcing my eyes to read the message on my phone but my tears, only make my eyes blur even more not letting me see anything, but my now really foggy looking room, in just a moment I feel a tear drip down my cheek, making me feel as weak as ever.

As my tears are falling off my face, I sit up and move against my wall picking my phone up from my bedsheets while I sit down onto them as my body still shakes in fear, I rub my eyes for a second, my screen off, making me forget about the unread message waiting for me. After all the tears have gone and my face has dried from my hands rubbing against it, I press my home button so I can read the message from John.

" acc, that pic was hella blurry can u like take anothe1????? "

"Fucking great..."

I mutter under my breath really annoyed at my actions and well the fact that he didn't even care about me all he wanted was... my body... Nothing else...

I decide not to reply, It's only going to weaken me even more, like one picture wasn't enough suffering, so I turn off my phone and leave it on my side table, hopefully I'll last the night without turning it back on.