Now that I look at it,
I was the only one feeling it.
Thinking you felt the same,
I dropped everything
and made you the center of my universe.
When I see you now happily laughing,
I don’t know why I let myself suffering
Left from this unrequited feeling
That honestly I can easily receive.
Maybe you’re my karma in disguise.
I thought you were good for my heart when you’re really not
Instead you just made me feel unloved.
While your life moved on,
Here I am, made a b*tch of my own.
Others may think I’m cool and quiet
But my heart is just a piece of crumpled paper
That you should have just thrown in the trash
Rather than giving it a hope of being picked up.
In many years I’ve been bitter.
There were many guys that hurt me,
Who didn’t treat me well as I was naïve.
And You. You just made me fall.
With a plan of not catching me.
But with that fall, I became stronger,
Prettier and smarter than ever.
Now I have this stone heart
That no one could move and dared to.
You’re still the only one who can do.
But every time I look at you,
I also feel all the aches I got from you.
That every time I exert my pride and efforts,
I just get boldly ignored.
So now, tears are falling down,
Why can’t I control this heart of mine?
This heart that kept so much pain
That it’s already numb and stiff.
So I wonder when I can ever feel love again.
When can the stain in my heart be erased ?
