The Alpha (BoyxBoy) (Book Two)

Part 32

*Jinx's PoV*

After dropping Austin off we went home, and after a lot of work, and a bit of help we managed to get me up the stairs, and we were now laying down in silence. That is, until River spoke. "We need to talk about something."

I sat up and looked towards him waiting for some sort of elaboration as my heart sped up. He stared up at me with a strange expression that I hated. Did I do something wrong? Was he mad at me? The silence then seemed to last forever as the anticipation built up. "When did you want me to take over the alpha position?"

I exhaled a breath I hadn't realized I had been holding in and I almost laughed but I realized how serious he was being. "Why are you asking me?" I asked in genuine confusion.

"Well," He started as he sat up clearly tense. "Were technically still two separate packs. Until the merge takes place you're still technically in charge of everyone from the Graystone pack. If we merge though and I haven't taken over, you're not gonna be in charge of anyone like you are now, and I don't know how you feel about that."

I stared at him for a moment as everything he said sank in and my heart melted. He was asking because he wanted to know how I felt about my own position. "Babe," I said softly before leaning in and kissing him. "I love you so much. I took over as soon as possible, and I regret the shit out of it honestly, I wasn't ready. I don't want you to make that mistake too. Take as much time as you need, talk about it with your dad, and don't worry about me. Sure I love being looked up to as the alpha, but I don't mind taking a couple steps back if that's what you need to be comfortable. Do whatever you feel you need to do."

The words seemed to ease him a bit as he relaxed a little and kissed my cheek before leaning back against the wall. "Thank you Jinx," he said softly, "you have no idea how much that means to me." The tone of his voice made me smile and I couldn't help but lean over and kiss him.

I loved that I got to see him like this, I loved that he got to see me like this. Around everyone else we seemed like completely different people. We both seemed so much edgy and hard, but then it was moments like this when we actually saw each other for who we were and not just the Alpha front. It was beautiful, and it made me feel amazing that he put that sort of trust in me. We had come a long way in such a small amount of time.

"I love you so much River." I whispered softly. "I didn't even know loving this much was possible. I mean I always heard people talk about what finding their mate felt like, but I had no idea it was this intense. I never wanna not feel this way again."

He smiled as he caressed my cheek. "That's good, because you never have to not feel this way again." The way he said it made my heart skip a beat. I moved closer to him and pressed our lips together. It was supposed to be quick and sweet, but as soon as I had the contact the thought of loosing it made my heart ache.

The emotions felt so intense, and it was as if my entire body was on fire. I didn't ever want to loose this contact. When we pulled apart to slid out of our shirts I wanted to cry, and judging by the way his face lunged towards mine as soon as the shot was clear he felt the same way.

The next time we pulled away from each other we were both naked, and we just sat there staring at each other for a moment taking in each others presence. The moment was filled with more emotion than I had felt if you took my entire life of emotions and combined it. Which quickly turned to pure lust as River spoke. "So, we tied?" I couldn't hold back the smile as I nodded. "Lay down."

I laid back as instructed and I heard River suck in a hard breath before getting up and walking around the bed. He leaned down and kissed me once more before climbing on top of me so that his manhood was directly above my mouth. Almost instantly I felt his lips close around my tip.