Songfictions

Before You Start Your Day

(I wrote this as a future reminder that things may not always be happy in life, but any tough times are temporary; and as a reminder that I can always overcome my anxiety. It may be difficult, but not impossible, and it certainly won't last forever. If this is something similar to an experience you have had, I hope things went well. Stay strong, and stay alive <3)

Open the slits in your face and start your day

You don't have much time to make your slits look just right

Over again,

I slip.

Under again,

I stay.

Unable to muster up the courage to get up and face the world again,

I lay in bed and stare at the ceiling.

Time slowly yet quickly ticks away.

I'm in your mind

There's a faint voice in the back of my head,

Making a sound as loud as its lungs can take.

I'm singing

Its singing, its shouting, its saying something I can't decipher, but

I can feel it in my bones, to rise, to conquer again.

I'm in your mind

There's a faint voice in the back of my head,

Making a sound as loud as its lungs can take.

I'm singing

But its becoming more clearer now..

I'm singing la-da la-da la-da la-da la-da la-da da

Its singing Conquer and fight through the chains of anxiety and depression that latched on the day before, and the day before then, but as this feeling rushes through me, the voice decreases in volume and begins to fade away

Only to return stronger.

Look in the mirror and ask your soul if you're alright

Anxiety.

Depression.

The chains that restrict me,

From being me.

At least I'm sitting now, but the chains have latched on again.

Put on the glitter that your soul hides behind

I can feel my soul sink, the whispers of the room telling me to stay,

that it wont matter if I don't see the world again for another day,

That I'm safe, here, in my cozy little room, alone in the darkness.

(Return to first chorus^)

Know where you were made holy

In temptation, I shake my head and wiggle my toes, try to move my feet, wake up my leg,

bend my arms, breathe heavily, try to move.

Open up your eyes and see

The clouds above will hold you

Because the world isn't as scary as I imagine it to be, and if it is, there's a chance it can be made the other way round. Waking up and thinking this, moving my legs, bending my arms, standing up, and walking...

the cuffs of my chains loosen and things seem clearer.

The clouds above will sing

I recognize that voice singing, shouting, or screaming earlier,

As my own.

I have no reason to be afraid of tonight simply for the thought of starting again the next day.

For starting again the next day, is a blessing, that many others don't always receive.

Even if starting again meant to feel those chains pull against my arms every day,

They can loosen,

They can rust,

And I can break them off.

And in your mind

Anxiety and Depression are those chains,

But they will not debilitate me,

You're singing la-da la-da la-da la-da la-da la-da da

I will overcome them.

I will conquer my fears.

I will break the chains.

And god-help-me, I will walk.

Over again,

I will not slip,

and ignore walkway to the rest of world,

Under again,

I will not stay-

Stay and hide in fear under my warm covers,

But instead I will walk right into it.