Brendon urie x reader

chapter 12

I wake up to the sound of beeping. Am I still alive? I want to be fucking dead god damn it!

I decided to open my eyes. I look to my right and see Brendon asleep in the chair next to me. A tear stained face. I looked to my left. Jake and Hayden. Jake was cuddled up to Hayden holding her like his life depends on it he was asleep. Tears stained his face as well.
  Hayden was awake. Sniffling slightly but she has cleared her face of tears. I tried to sit up, which caused me to wince I'm pain. Don't use your fucking arms you I do it!! I mentality yelled at myself. Hayden looked up and was surprised to see me awake. She started crying again and tried to get up but couldn't due to a short boy holding on for dear life. "Jake if you let go you can see y/n" she whispered knowing I hate loud noises when I first wake up. His eyes shoot open and he runs to me hugging me really tight. "Don't ever fucking do that again I almost lost you.....I can't lose you.... Please stay I don't want you to go please stay with me" he pleaded. I tried to speak but it cane out as a lot raspy whisper. "I-i don't know what I'm doing Jake" Hayden waked to the other side of the bed and woke up Brendon. He opened his eyes and looked at her she pointed to me. He looked over, jumped up and hugged me. Both of the boys crying while Hayden seemed to get over it quicker then I thought.
"Y/n...?"
"Yes Brendon?"
"If you want to come with me you can bring Jake and Hayden..."
Jake looked at him shocked
"Really?!" He asked voice going high.
"Ya I really don't mind" Brendon replied
"I'll go. Jake I know u wanna to but, what about you Hayden?" I asked looking at her
"I wanna stay here with Johnnie " she replied quietly
"That's fine just don't get pregnant" I laughed she went bright red which made me laugh more.
"So how long was I asleep?" I asked it was silent for a while.
"Not as long as last time...." Jake mumbled.
Brendon looked confused. "You were only out for 3 days y/n/n but please don't do it again" Jake said "okay I'll try not to" you said with a sigh "baby what dose he mean by not as long as last time?" Brendon asked slightly worried.
"Well um I cut really deep a few years ago...I think I was in 10th grade.... Ya 10th.....I wanted to die.... So I cut deep hoping no one would find me....Jake found me and bow I'm here......I was out for 7 and a half months last time...." I said looking away from them all.
Just then the doctor walked in.
"Hey guys I'm Dr.Armstrong...."

A/n this was kinda just idk I guess just something quick so ya um the song up top has nothing to do with this its called loser by falling in reverse its from there new album which is coming out April 7th I'm so excited anyway baiiiiiiiiiiii