Never Let You Go

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Jae-Eun's POV
"Jungkook," I sighed. "I'm not interested in any guys at the moment so can you please stop bugging me about it." I said a little annoyed as this was the fifteenth time he asked me who I had a crush on. Seriously, I don't know what's wrong with this kid.

My focus at the moment is school. I have no time to be having any romance in my life since what I really need right now, well besides maybe a social life too, is to get into a good college.

Also, I don't really trust in people much to allow myself to really love anybody. The only reason I trust Jungkook is because he's been my best friend since elementary school. He's been there in my good and bad times when everyone else only abandoned me.

He's such a sweet and caring guy that any girl would be lucky to have him as a boyfriend. I've got to admit he's pretty handsome too which I'm surprised he's still single.

I was kind of happy he still was because it means we can hang out without worrying about a jealous girlfriend.

Even though he had promised that he'd never leave me no matter the circumstances, I always feared he would forget me once he did start dating someone. I often think about that moment to come and I don't think I'll ever be prepared. He's like family to me and if I lose him I don't know how I'll be able to manage.

"Why not?" He asked breaking me out of my thoughts and bringing me back to reality.

He must've noticed I was thinking too much. Overthinking was a problem of mine since it usually led me to sadness and he always tried his best to keep me from doing so.

"What? Is it abnormal for me not to have a crush or have an interest on a certain guy at the moment?" I asked defensively and once again getting annoyed that he still wouldn't drop this subject.

He sat there for a moment not saying anything but I clearly knew he was thinking about something. He suddenly looked up with eyes widened. I gave him this confused face waiting for what ridiculous thing he was about to say.

"Oh. My. Gosh," he gasped putting a hand over his mouth. "Are you perhaps..." he leaned forward towards me, "Do you prefer girls?" He whispered the last part.

I knew he was gonna say some idiotic thing like this. I flick his forehead and gave a victorious smile as he yelped in pain.

"Yah Jungkook! It's not like that!" I glare at him.
"Its just that there's no interesting guys at our school so stop saying stupid stuff like that. Besides, you know I wouldn't trust anyone enough to date them AND that I got other stuff to focus on other than a ridiculous crush," I said.

Don't get me wrong I don't have anything against homosexuality and such but this kid only says things like this to annoy me.

"Ok, ok I was just joking. Geez. I'm reporting you for abuse," he said still rubbing his now red forehead. I laughed at the mark I had left him. He gave me a glare and I just smiled. Silence again made its way on us so I decided to continue this little joke he started.

"Sooo...what IF I was?" I said raising an eyebrow crossing my arms over my chest as I leaned back on the chair.

Jungkook immediately stopped playing with his phone and gave me a quick glance before returning his gaze back at it.

"I wouldn't have a problem with it," he shrugged but something in his voice said differently.

I heard him mumble something. "What was that?" I poke his arm. "I couldn't hear you. Baby Kookie forgot how to speak?" I teased him.

He didn't mind the little nickname I made for him but he hates being called a baby.

"I'm not a baby!" He pouted. Ahh so contradicting. "And I was just saying I was hungry that's it."

"Jungkook, we just fucking ate!" I said a little too loud which brought people's attention to us. Oh yeah did I forget to mention we were at a restaurant for lunch?

Jungkook softly giggled as I felt slightly embarrassed. I'm a timid person so getting any attention from a crowd was not something I liked. I bow in my seat apologizing to the other customers before I hide myself behind my hands.

I gave him a glare and he just shrugged giving me his evil smirk. I rolled my eyes at him drinking the last bit of coffee in my cup.

Jungkook's POV
I was playing on my phone to distract myself as silence filled both of us again. It was never awkward between me and her even if we just sat there not saying a word. We felt comfortable with each other since we've been friends for quite some time.

"Sooo...what IF I was?" She asks breaking the silence. I froze at the question giving a quick glance at her. "I wouldn't have a problem with it," I shrugged trying to sound as convincing as possible.

It's not that I was lying I honestly wouldn't care if anyone around me was interested in the same sex but with her it was different for a reason. I returned to my game only to realize I had already lost. Damn it.

I quietly add more to my answer, "it would just mean I wouldn't have a chance with you." I sighed.

"What was that?" I felt a poke on my arm. " I couldn't hear you. Baby Kookie forgot how to speak?"

I sat there relieved that she wasn't able to hear what I just said until I realized what she called me. She knew how much I hated being called a baby, I'm older than her anyways!

"I am not a baby!" I exclaimed pouting as I did so. Why did I just pout? It's not helping my statement. "I was just saying I'm hungry," I continued before she has a chance to continue teasing me.

"Jungkook, we just fucking ate!" She yelled causing the attention of the other customers to fall on us. I chuckled as I saw her blushing of embarrassment, she looked so cute.

She apologized to everyone around us and glared at me most likely blaming me for causing her to bring that kind of attention to us. She was quite shy and hated having a spotlight on her. I gave her an evil smirk causing her to roll her eyes.

I keep my eyes on her, smiling, as she finished the rest of her drink.

If only she knew what I felt for her.
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Woo~ how's that for a first chapter? Kinda cheesy I think lol.
I know I took too long for this to finally become public. I don't know how long this book will be but I guess we shall see.
So sad to see Jungkook with one sided love...or is it?? 😏🤔[cue suspenseful music] *slowly walks out before people start attacking me*
Happy Thanksgiving 🍁 btw~