Forever

Chapter 37

"What!?" Zayn asks, he seems calm.

"You heard" I whisper.

"Well I think I heard wrong" he replies looking directly into my eyes.

"No you heard correct"

"So what you have been pregnant with my child before now?" the sound of his voice makes me think he doesn't believe me.

"Not your baby" I stare straight in front of me, not daring to make eye contact.

"What the fuck? Who's baby then Francesca?" he sounds angry now.

"I'm sorry" I whisper, that is all I manage to say.

"I said who's baby" he repeates.

"Well the first time, it was Harry's"

"Ok, because you used to date but what happened?" he looks at me.

"The same thing that happened just now"

"Babe, it's ok. I wish you or Harry would of said something. I'm sorry to hear that babe" he wraps me into a hug.

"Wait a minute, you said the first time. Do you mean before this time" he let's a small smile escape his lips.

I shake my head and once again whisper "sorry"

"Who then?" I can hear him confused.

"I...your...um" I don't know how to start talking.

"Tell me, now" he half shouts as I feel a tear leave my eye.

"About 2 months ago Uwais and Jawaad came here, to our house and..." he cut me off.

"What the FUCK?" he shouts.

"Zayn shh people are here" I try to calm him down.

"I don't fucking care" he snaps back at me. "Tell me they didn't do what I think they did" he looks down to me.

I give him a small nod. He closes his eyes and I can tell he feels sick, that's what I felt and still feel now.

"Every time I close my eyes I feel them touching me, looking at me, hurting me and I..." he cuts me off again.

"Them? Who did it to you Francesca?" he rushes over to me and neels down next to the hospital bed.

"Both of them" I look to the floor.

"Oh my God. Babe why didn't you tell me? After what they did to Harry I will fucking kill them"

"No Zayn please. That's what they said" he looks at me confused. "They said If I told you ever they would kill you when you go to kill them like they did to Harry and I don't want that to happen"

"You can't expect me to do nothing about this? My brothers raped you. Killing them still wouldn't be half of what they deserve" I feel him get angry.

"Zayn no, please" tears filling up my eyes.

"How could you not trust me enough to tell me?" he walks closer to me again.

"I knew you would go after them and I felt embarrassed and dirty. And I thought you wouldn't want me anymore"

"How could you feel embarrassed?" he caress my cheek with his thumb.

"Because it's disgusting and it wasn't just one man, it was too" I know that I can't hold my tears in much longer.

"Who have you spoke about It to?"

"No one" I whisper.

"How could you keep something like this a secret?"

"I thought if I didn't say anything it would go away" I am crying now.

"Babe, I wish you would have told me, you have to tell me things even things like this" he paused. "I am your husband"

"I know" I whispered.

"Come on then, lets go" I climbed off the hospital bed and got changed into my own clothes.

...

We were sat in the car whilst Zayn was driving us home.

"Zayn" I broke the silence.

"Yeah babe" he looked at me.

"We still need to talk"

"I know, I will get you counselling. You know I am upset that you didn't tell me or get professional help but I am very proud of you for dealing with it. How did you cope" he gives me a symphetic look.

"To be honest I really have no clue. I just thought of you and carried on, not thinking about me or what happened"

"When did you finally get fully over it?"

"Just now when I told you" I give a small smile and he holds my hand.

"Zayn"

"Yep?" he smilled

"You need to promise me something" I watched his face, I think he knew what I was about to ask.

"If it's to leave Jawaad and Uwais then I'm sorry babe but I can't promise I won't kill the fucking shits. I don't have any brothers anymore, just my sisters who I will make sure they never go near them ever. And I will never let them hurt you ever, that is what I promise" I kiss him, that is exactly what I wanted to hear. That's why I love him.