Lust vs Love (Jiva Fanfic)

Chapter 8

"She was staring out the window,

And the snow, it was fallin'

Seemed like everything I used to know,

Mmmm it was crumblin'

She cannot cope and it hurts inside her mind

Couldn't let it go, let it go

Couldn't bear to ever be alone

She wondered how this had happened..."

Siva sat down with his head tilted back and his eyes closed as he enjoyed Jay's angelic voice. It made him feel good in a way he couldn't really understand.

"Don't you seem to be enjoying the song," Tom said to Siva.

"It sounds good so far."

"Good enough to make you smile, lay your head back and close your eyes?"

"Exactly."

Tom chuckled. "It's meant to be a tear jerker, but it's good to know you're liking it."

"It would be nice if I had a part in a verse."

"You should've come sooner the other day to fight over one."

"I thinks it's better for me not to have one, anyway."

"Why not?"

"The songs a bit of a touchy subject. Don't ask why."

"Okay," Tom drawled awkwardly.

After Jay finished recording and perfecting his parts, he came out of the booth, Tom taking his previous place. He sat beside Siva while Nathan and Max conversed.

"How'd I do?" Jay asked.

"Wonderfully," Siva replied, trying to crack a smile.

"Alright, what's wrong?"

"Can we go to your place once we've finished up here?"

"Yeah, sure."

"Okay, we'll talk about it then."

•••

"Want some beer?" Jay offered as he looked through his fridge for beverages.

"Nah. I'm not thirsty, but thanks."

"Suit yourself." Jay got himself a bottle, removed the cap, and began drinking it as he walked to his couch. He sat beside Siva and looked to the TV screen to get a glimpse at what he was watching.

"I get that you want to watch Star Wars, but can we talk about what's bothering you now?"

Siva sighed and put the sound on mute. He turned his body towards Jay and took a moment to gather his words.

"I don't think I can do it," he hesitated to say.

"Do what?"

"Break up with Nareesha, at least not anytime soon."

Jay squinted his eyes as he tried to register what Siva was saying.

"It's just that, so much has been going on with her career lately. She's doing all of these new things that are working her to the bone. If I leave her right when things are starting to look up for her, all of her hard work and dedication will blow up in her face. I can't have that happen to her. I can't have our breakup ruin everything for her."

"Nareesha's always been a strong girl. I doubt a breakup would have her plummeting through the ground."

"We've been together for six years," Siva argued.