Sometimes I feel like
I have been here to long,
Maybe even forever.
I feel like i am trapped in this page.
Caged inside myself.
Trapped beneath the ground
Looking for the photons
That will lead me out,
That will leak me out,
And keep me out.
No one ever wants to stay
In the same place
Or do the same things
For several years.
The years begin to look
The same and everything
That is the same becomes
Madness, becomes hysterical,
If you stare long enough.
Now tell me how sad
It is to have so much poetry inside
But not enough pages,
To write them down.
That is what this is like,
Like all the love I have for you
Trapped inside my body.
All the nights I envision you,
Together our hands mangled.
That is what this is like,
Like the everything
And the nothing about you
Is inside of me
And I do not know what
To do or where to go.
Sometimes I want to show
You more of me,
But I do not know how.
