THE TRUE LOVE SURVIVES EVERYTHING SERIES : DECISIONS

the truth about my past & meeting the band

At that moment I thought, he won't played with my emotions, because I already went through something like that. And at that time I turned away from him, and walked with firm step in the direction of home, while I was trying to restrain my tears, I promised myself that I never would cry again after what that bastard had done to me and yet the tears ran down my face.

He caught me up, looked at me and asked : 'What is going on, why are you crying? If I said or done something wrong, then I'm sorry'.

'No, it's not your fault, it was just too much for me', I said to him.

And I told him the whole story and his reaction to it . Wow, that was something I never expected. He pulled me tight and he didn't care whether the people could see us, lifted my head up and kissed me firmly on the mouth. And in that moment all my doubts disappeared and how in God's name could I think that he would be like that bastard I used to be with ?

He wiped the tears from my face, smiled and grabbed my hand tightly, and then said: 'I would never hurt you, and if I ever come across that bastard ... ... .....'. Yes, if only he knew that that bastard is one of the reasons why I am moved to Sweden  and I was really happy that I took that decision, because otherwise I had never met him and then I wouldn't have never been happier than I was now. We walked along to my apartment and then we went to his house and there sat Messi already waiting on his boss and when he saw me, he began to wag his tail, I stroked his head, I was so crazy about that dog and his boss, but I couldn't miss both anymore.

And all of a sudden I wondered where the dog stayed, if he was away for a long time with the band, he couldn't always take him along with him.

'Yes, sometimes it goes , if the performances are here in Sweden, or if it's not too far and we can go with the car.  But otherwise it is indeed difficult, but I have a few good friends who also have a dog and then he goes there', he said. 'But if you want I can dogsit ', I said to him. 'Or do you find that too early, otherwise you just have to say that to me, but you have to know one thing, and that is that I'm crazy about that dog'.

'Only crazy about the dog?' he asked, but with such a look in his eyes, that I stepped to him, kissed him and said: 'I'm falling madly in love with his boss'. He answered that kiss and then said: 'We still have some time before we have to go to the rehearsal, so what do you want to do?'

The most of all I would just spend the afternoon alone with him, butthose rehearsals are important. I really don't know, what else can you do on an hour, I thought to myself. Yes I could say different things at that time, but all of a sudden he took my hand and said, 'If you're considering in the weeks that I'm not home, to watch over Messi, then I will give you a tour for sure, then you know everything'. 'OK, that is indeed a good idea'. I said. But I would rather do something else now, I thought to myself, but then, there was the chance that we no longer had the time to do something else.

And an hour later we drove to the rehearsal, it was nice to see the band, they are also really nice and funny men, just as he. And yes of course I already knew Alexander from the time he was in the apartment. The rehearsal went very smoothly, they asked my opinion about the play- list, with what song to start first. Yes, how would I be able answer to that , but I gave them my opinion anyway, and then they looked to each other, then back to me and then back to each other, 'OK, we'll try that'.

And apparently my opinion was really important because they had changed it and all of a sudden Peter said: 'That was a very good idea, then we play this one on our next concert'.

OK then, well done , but if I go to be at every rehearsal then his attention wouldn't be at the rehearsing and honestly mine either, it was now hard to listen carefully to the music and not constantly watching him and be with my toughs somewhere else. And when we got back to my apartment , he stopped suddenly, turned to me and said: 'Thanks for this afternoon, I found it quite pleasant and besides, normally there will be no one else on our rehearsals'. And that was his way to show that he meant it seriously with me, because the men had apparently saw that there was something going on but not that it was serious, just some flirting, nothing more, but when they saw that he kissed me after the rehearsal, they knew enough. Oh boy, what am I going to miss him when he would go away for a long time! The concerts here in Sweden I could feel free to attend, even backstage, but the others were difficult, not only because of my job, but I had promised him that I would watch over Messi when he was away for long periods of time.

But he had promised me that he would always call me or send a message, before and after each concert, that was super sweet of him and then I was also assured that all was well, because you never know, of course. Those first weeks, when we had decided to start a serious relationship, were amazing, I met his parents and his sister, and they are also very nice people and they also support him in everything he does and they were so happy for him that he had found someone who was in love with his personality and not on his status as a celebrity.

They had to know that, at our very first meeting, I didn't know who he was. Yes, I had heard his name a few times and the song Heroes heard on the radio, but that was all.

But unfortunately after those weeks he had to go away for long periods of time, he had several gigs in different countries and he would be at least three weeks away from home, three weeks without him . I felt like that it's gonna take forever, luckily I had my work and the evening I could take Messi out for a walk.

Luckily that his parents regularly came to visit, so that I could talk with someone outside of the job and miss design was back to her old self, but I was glad that I had not asked for another secretary, because she asked: ' Is everything OK?'. 'I'm fine, thanks'. Beyond the fact that I missed him very hard .He called me every day, and if a performance was done very late, he sent a message and then I read it immediately the next day and sent an answer back right away, but that was not the same than to wake up next to him and seeing that beautiful smile.

I was even thinking maybe finally to move to his house and quit my apartment, but that I had to discuss with him first, and in the weeks that he was away , I stayed at his home, because dogs were not allowed in my apartment. But it was still a bigger jump in the deep and I didn't know if we were that far already in our relationship by moving in together, he stayed sometimes at my place but mostly we stayed at his place, his home was bigger and he had a big garden, ideal for parties and barbecues, and he also had a boat in the water at the house, so I could also go swimming if I wanted. And already I knew his home better than my apartment, but I still felt a stranger there.