I'd die for you. (A shumdario AU)

Why do I feel like this? Pt.1

Harry stared at his script again. His cheeks were still red and his heart was beating rapidly. He flipped to the third page where he and Matt were supposed to have a solemn conversation about their relationship which would lead to Matt pinning him to the wall which would then lead to them making out.

Harry was totally okay with kissing Matt but for some reason, he had this slight feeling of regret. He remembered the day when he and Matt had the first ever Malec kiss during Alec's wedding which Magnus interrupted just because he liked Alec the way he had never liked anyone else before.

Harry smiled, his eyes gleaming as he thought of Matthew, the most perfect Alec Lightwood they could ever have. Matthew had been very extroverted when all of them first met and unexpectedly, Matthew reverted all his attention to Harry alone and had begun conversing with him about something related to cows or something but what Harry knew was that Matthew was one hilarious being. Moreover, he was pure and innocent and very attractive and both of them seemed happy together - very happy.

Harry still had his makeup on and they had just finished shooting episode twelve. And episode thirteen was when Magnus and Alec were supposed to kiss again. Maybe more than that but Harry could not figure.

He took off his makeup, being as conscientious as possible. He did not wish to break anything like how he did the first day when he broke a decorated glass container that was fortunately, empty. Harry changed into his long sleeve white sweater and jeans before proceeding out of his trailer with his bag.

That was when he chanced upon Matthew, who obviously had just taken a bath. His hair was drenched and rivulets of water were trickling down his face. He looked somehow angelic. But Harry could clearly see the trepidation in Matt's eyes that he has had since the day they met. But at the same time, his eyes evinced joy, surprise and a hint of mystery. He quirked a smile at Matt and Matt grinned.

"Hey Harry. Going home?" enquired Matt as he observed Harry's face like he usually did. Harry blushed a little.

"Yeah, I am. Are you?" asked Harry as calmly as he could. Matt chuckled and took hold of Harry's hand.

"Soon enough. I've gotta pack my bag. Do you wanna walk home with me?"

Harry's breath quickened.

"Sure, Matt. I'll...uhh...wait for you here," said Harry, his face lit-up as Matt bit his lip.

"You can come into my trailer if you want. You know you are always welcome right?"

Harry nodded. Actually, Matt had said that a while ago but Harry never got the time to. Well, he was shy to. What if Matt was working out and he just entered? There would be so much awkward tension in the atmosphere.

Harry then followed Matt into his trailer.