Always Yours

My First Kiss

It was my 13th birthday, I was so glad to finally be a teenager. My mom decided to throw me a party at our house and I invited all of my closest friends. It was the first time that Tyler came to my house and I was kind of nervous. We've been hanging out in a group for weeks but this would be the first time my mom was meeting him and I was anxious to get her opinion. He was my first crush, my first kiss, my first everything. I had butterflies leading up to the hour when everyone arrived. My mom had recently gotten engaged with my friend from school, Aria's dad Darren. They were both going to be there and Aria was always looking for a way to copy me. My mom thought it was cute but I didn't like it very much. Kayla was the first one to come over because she lived across the street. I was kind of worried to share Tyler with everyone. I know that sounds silly but I didn't need him falling for someone else. No, scratch that. I didn't want him to fall for someone else. I'm not sure if my little heart could handle the disappointment. 

I set up games and my mom ordered pizza. There were tons of snacks and the cake looked amazing. It had red and purple frosting, my two favorite colors, flowers and read Happy 13th Birthday Abby. I couldn't wait to eat it. The party started at 4:00PM and we recently got a pool put in the backyard. Everyone was told to bring their swimsuits. My favorite part about having my birthday in July was no school and pool parties. I'm so lucky that my mom taught me how to swim but Tyler wasn't so lucky. We all enjoyed the water though. Darren filled up water balloons for us and we all partnered up and had a water balloon toss. Kayla and I came in second place while our friends Logan and Alex came in first. Tyler and Aria ended up being partners but I wasn't going to let that get to me. The day was still young and there was plenty of opportunities to team up together. 

After dinner, someone had the bright idea to play truth or dare in the basement while the adults were away. I swear I was the only person in my grade that haven't had their first kiss yet. Usually that didn't bother me but today I felt embarrassed.  I said truth thinking that they would go easy on me but nope, I was wrong. Of course my question was "When was your first kiss?" I thought about lying but knew that someday that could bite me in the ass. That's when Tyler looked at me and whispered into my ear. "I'll be your first kiss." I was speechless. Was he really offering to kiss me? I think he felt embarrassed too for even mentioning because he kept trying to avoid me the rest of the night. I wasn't sure if I was ready for my first kiss but if it was going to happen eventually, so I hoped it would be Tyler. I found him in the kitchen grabbing something out of the fridge when I tapped on his shoulder. "Okay." I said shyly with a small smile. "What?" He turned around, looking at me confused as what I was talking about. "The kiss." I whispered so no one else would hear. "Are you sure?" He seemed more nervous then I was in that moment. "If you still are offering?" "Meet me outside in 5 minutes." He took his drink and went back to the rest of the people from the party. I ran upstairs and reapplied my lip gloss. I can't believe I was getting my first kiss tonight and from the boy I actually might be catching feelings for. It felt like a fairy tale come true. 

I went outside and sat on the patio outside waiting for my prince charming to come and sweep me off my feet. Little did I know that he was only going to break my heart in the long run over and over again. It was reaching 8:30 and I was getting butterflies again. I felt someone touch my leg and looked up to see Tyler smiling down at me. "Hey." He said with a bright smile. "Hey." I said back, feeling my cheeks flush. He sat down across from me and just stared at me for a moment. "I'm really enjoying the party. Thanks for inviting us." "Of course." I said back in response. I stared at his lips and looked back up into his chocolate brown eyes. I wanted to know everything about him. What his favorite color was. What his first pet's name was. What favorite subject was at school. Every little detail that made him who he was. The good, the bad and the ugly. I was in for the long haul. The next thing I knew he kissed me, I was so lost in my own thoughts that it took me off guard but it felt good like I was at home. He pulled away making it shorter than I expected but I was craving more. "I think... I think Jess and Derrick are calling me. I have to go." I was so confused. He got up went into the house and left shortly after with his friends. Did I do something wrong? I asked myself that question so many times the rest of the summer, I thought I was going to go crazy. I almost convinced myself that I was bad kisser. It was not the fairy tale moment that I was expecting. I wanted so badly to tell my friends and eventually caved, spoiling all the details to Kayla. She was just as shocked as I was. We never spoke about it again and nothing romantic happened between Tyler and I for another 2 years. He ended up dating a freshman for a while and I swear something happened between Aria and Tyler but they wouldn't dare tell me. She knew how head over heels I was for him. However, I made sure that no matter what we never stopped being in each other's lives even through all the ups and downs.