What are you?
How does one put you into words?
A feeling, an emotion, a person, a thought
There are words
But it's not enough
Are you the beating in my chest
That speeds up when my thoughts fall my beloved?
Are you the ache I feel in my heart
When my thoughts fall on a past love?
Such a bittersweet moment I have
While I lie in bed, tossing and turning
Pondering over how to describe you
How to paint you in the right light
As something that saved me
And as something that damned me all the same
Why must you be so two faced with me
Either be kind or be not
Do not keep switching between the two
I will not be able to take it, feeling
Your sweet hand, which holds me up
Tossing me away in the same motion once again
I will not be able to take
Giving my all to you
And believing, truly believing
You'd give your all to me as well
Only to find streaks of tears
That used to be pathways of kisses
Or perhaps it is not you who change but myself
Am I just laying the blame on you?
Am I accusing you so inaccurately?
I'll never know
For I do not even know how to describe you
I do not know what you are
