Notice Me, Senpai

16

It's Friday. I just wanted to go home and wallow in my misery, but life won't even give me that. I don't know how to feel about everything that happened today. I fell asleep during class and woke up during lunch because of all the noise and because I felt that someone was watching me. When I looked up, Jungkook was sitting in front of me, smiling, holding a cookie in clear packaging in his hand. I wanted to go back to sleep, but it had been so long since I'd seen him smile, I couldn't. He tried to talk to me, saying that he missed us hanging out, and that we should eat together then. He said he already ate so he gave me the cookie.

I couldn't eat it. Eating anything made me completely sick. But he looked so worried about me not wanting to eat it. He looked so upset and I just knew he was going to ask about my health. I wasn't prepared enough to answer anything so I ate it. I ate the whole thing in as little bites as possible. Then I smiled at him, thanking him. And he smiled back and left. Immediately, my stomach couldn't handle it. I stood up, my thighs quivering, and I ran to the restroom. It seemed empty, which I was thankful. I leaned over one of the toilets and threw up. It was a surprising amount of vomit for such a small cookie. When I was done I was left there gasping for air, trying so hard to stay awake, to stay alive.

Then Jungkook came in, running to me and holding me. And for the first time in my life, someone asked if I was okay. I could only smile and look at his worried face before I passed out. Next thing I know, I'm laying on my bed in my house.

Jungkook brought me here, and he said he'd take care of me for the whole weekend. I don't want him to, I don't want him to see me as weak as I am. But I didn't say no. I've never really had anyone take care of me before either. I wonder what it's like.

Jungkook is out right now, buying food and other stuff. That's why I had time to write something long today. Well, bye for now.

-Park Jimin