It is three in the morning and I cannot stop thinking about you. I am nineteen days clean and you are my motivation, you make me want to keep living. You show me a world where I can be loved for being who I am. My "friends" insult me, make fun of me, ignore me; and the thought of you makes me feel worth something. When I am with you, I never want to leave, I feel wanted. I want you. You make me happy, hopeful; but you also make me sad. I hate feelings, they control me; I try to avoid them, but I cannot help falling for you. You make me feel everything I have been trying to escape. I hate you for making me undergo these emotions, even though I am not able to hate you. You are the drug that makes me feel good, and the side effect is love, slowly conquering my brain and heart.
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Five Days Before I Leave
FanfictionI have always seen stories about heartbreaks that happen when a person leaves, but they are always focused on the one being left behind. Why don't we center our attention in the one giving everything up? Dean writes Cas the most beautiful letters be...
