Holding you in my arms one last time was heartbreaking; my eyes were filled with tears of sadness, but they would not fall, I did not dare cry in front of you. You make me feel, and I hate it, I hate it so much. I cannot even think about being with anyone else because no one has that effect on me. No one makes my heart beat as fast. No one makes me laugh like you do. No one makes me want to stay more than you do. I hate drastic changes, they cause me stomachaches; but to suddenly have you in my life, I think that is a blessing.
I am selfish though; I never want to let you go, I want to be with you more than anything in this world, and I want you to be mine forever. I do not want to forget you, ever; but I want to take care of you, I want to help you, I want to be there for you, I want you to have someone to rely on. I cannot afford losing you, and I am falling apart without you. Words cannot explain how much I am missing you, because I cannot stop thinking about you, or maybe I do not want to.
I miss your eyes already. That beautiful blue I have always dreamed of, not as dark as the night but not as light as the day. It is the perfect twilight. Whenever they looked at me I felt like I was the happiest person alive; because you are my one and only. You are the one that keeps me up all night and makes me blush. You are it. All I have been looking for.
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Five Days Before I Leave
FanfictionI have always seen stories about heartbreaks that happen when a person leaves, but they are always focused on the one being left behind. Why don't we center our attention in the one giving everything up? Dean writes Cas the most beautiful letters be...
