just another teenage love story

Six

Nialls alarm rings through the house. I'm still at nialls? Ugh I have a headache. I feel something stir under me. Niall. We were sprawled on the couch and I was laying on him resting my head on his chest. I slowly started to get up before I felt a pair of strong arms wrap around me tugging me back down. "Stay" his eyes weren't open yet and his morning voice low and raspy. "Niall we have school. " he grounded letting me up. I walked to the bathroom and a few minutes later the beeping stopped. Shit. I don't have clothes. I rummaged through my bag looking past school stuff until I found my jeans. I slipped them on. I don't want to wear the same shirt as yesterday so I kept nialls green one on. It was baggy so I tucked one corner in slightly giving myself the 'messy' look. I have to admit it smelled like him. Amazing. I pulled on my grey vans and walked back out. Niall was dressed and in the kitchen. He was cooking something and it smelled delicious. I felt my stomach growl. I'm starving. I should eat, but no I can't. I've barely lost a pound.

"Want some?" His voice was still slightly raspy when he spoke indicating he's not fully up. "N-no I'm good but uh do you have green tea?" I asked for my go to. "Yea" he moved from the stove putting water in a kettle and pulling out a box of tea bags. I watched him eat the bacon and eggs envious. My stomach growled again. It's not growling. No it's applauding. "Ellie you sure your not hungry" he asked raising an eyebrow. I just slightly smiled nodding my head. After he ate he grabbed his bag and his keys. I grabbed my board and headed for the door. Niall opened the driver side door and I slapped my board on the sidewalk. "What are you doing" his voice held confusion. "G-going t to school" I paused as he just looked at me like I was crazy. "Don't wanna ruin your rep" I spoke quietly and pushed myself down the sidewalk. The loud noise of his car door shutting made me flinch. I was upset he didn't protest. Why didn't he protest?

School is going by rather quickly. Not that I want it to. I grabbed my apple and the book I recently started reading: this is not a test. On my way to the closet Stacy stopped me once again. This time the pops were with her too. "You really are pathetic Elaine. Eating in a closet everyday. Well maybe you're just something the janitor cleaned up. " she laughed or rather cackled. I looked up to see niall. His face held guilt maybe. No it held amusement. I knew last night was all just a trick to mess with my head. I looked back to Stacy. "It's Ellie" slipped my mouth before I could stop it. As soon as I said it my throughout became scratchy. "I I'm sorry what was that" Stacy took a step closer to me frustrated that I corrected her. I wanted to say something but I couldn't. I opened my mouth but I was stopped by a stinging sensation in my cheek. Had Stacy slapped me? She's done it before but it never brought such a bad burn. Was it because she had anger behind it and not just for the fun of doing it?

She walked away with the prosthetics and the pops following her. Niall was in the back of the group. He looked at me. His face was amused but I looked into his eyes and they held something different. "Pathetic" he whispered as he continued his way to his table.

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Tears brimmed my eyes as I recalled the school day. Mr. Reynolds had me and niall stay a few minutes after the bell. He instructed that every Friday niall tutors me. Then lunch. I didn't eat my apple due to being called cow on my way to the closet. It sat on it's self taunting me as I read. In gym couch had us climb the rope and test our upper body strength. I felt insecure doing it I front of everyone especially since niall was there. I stayed a few minutes after class to do it instead. Uncle rick won't be happy about that . "Ready Ellie" couch asked getting ready to press his stop watch. I got ready to climb and he called out 'go' mad I was off. Once I reached the too he stopped the timer and I climbed down. "Ellie you have the best time for the girls side why didn't you want to do it in class?" I didn't answer his question I just shrugged and went to change out of uniform.

I hopped on my board and got home as quickly as I could. Sitting on the couch waiting for me was a very pissed off uncle rick. I stood there frozen suddenly remembering I didn't come home last night. That's why he's furious me staying after just fueled the fire. I'm dead. He didn't speak a word. He just stood up slowly walking towards me. He fisted at my no nialls shirt. "Who's is this" his voice was heavy and deep sending a jolt of fear through me. "M-m-mine" I lied. "Go upstairs" I did as I was told and walked to my room. I sat on the bed until I heard my door open. Uncle rick came in with a belt. "Take off that shirt. " I didn't dare disobey him. I turned my bare back towards him as he made me lean over the bed as if I were praying. I was praying. Praying it wouldn't hurt. But it did I felt every single whip of the belt to my back. I felt the tears sting my eyes. After maybe 35 strikes he seemed done with the belt. But I didn't know that. Instead I stayed on the floor expecting another whip. I jumped as I felt his hand creep around to my front. His hand stopped over my bra I quickly jumped up pushing his hand away. That only earned me a punch to the jaw.

Once he was out of my room I scrambled to my bathroom. I felt under the toilet seat for a familiar object. I kept it there because I'm a girl I don't need to lift up the seat and uncle rick never used my bathroom. I peeled it off and studied it. Silver and sharp. Still had a bit of blood from the last time. I couldn't really clean it. I ran the metal across my left hip. Five times. My left hip is for my fathers abandonment. Then my right hip. Eight times. For my mothers abandonment and death. Then my stomach. Thirteen times. For everything. For school. For uncle rick. For the prosthetics and the pops. For being an outcast. For the way I look. Everything.

I got off the bathroom floor and turned on the shower to the hottest setting. I took off the remaining clothes I had and stepped in. I screamed from the pain coursing through me. It's not the first time the belt was used. I have scars all over my back to prove it. But the water hurt like a bitch against all of my fresh wounds. I got out of the shower and got dressed in baggy clothing in order to keep contact off my body. My phone buzzed.

N-come over.

E-no

N-now Ellie

E- no

N-looks like I'm going to have to get you then.

E- no! You can't

N-then get your ass over here now!

What what could he possibly want from me. Scared to disobey yet another very strong male I listened. I put on my vans and walked downstairs. Uncle rick had left. Most likely to a club meaning he won't be back til morning. I got on my skate board and made my way to nialls. Not before I grabbed his shirt stuffing part of it in my pocket. I walked up the pathway and nocked twice on the door. A second later a very blue eyed boy answered. His eyes exactly like nialls. "Hello" the man a few years older than I answered slightly confused. "Greg move" nialls voice sounded. He too was shirtless. Wtf. The man, Greg, stepped away and went to what I guessed was the basement. I followed niall to his room.

"W-why am I here" I dared to ask."just shut up" he whispered rudely. I stood there awkwardly. I mean what am I supposed to do? I have no idea why I'm here and I don't want to be. I stood up feeling confident "I-I I I'm going home" my confidence slipped as I spoke but it wasn't going to stop me. "No" i thought nothing could stop me....I didn't consider niall. He wrapped an arm around my waist to keep me from moving. I wanted to scream out in pain but I just whimper. He retreated his arm placing a strong hand on the door. He disregarded my whimper as he spun me to face him. My back faced the door. I'm not sure why I was so scared. Maybe it's because niall hits me like uncle rick just not as bad.....or maybe because niall was tall and blonde with blue eyes like uncle rick... I'm told I look like my father by uncle rick constantly and uncle rick has the blue eyes I do. My father has brown hair though. That's one reason uncle rick hates me so much. He despises my father.

I cower back but there isn't much room between me and the door. Mere centimeters in fact. He leans down ever so slightly making the gap between us close even more. I flinch but can't cover my face unable to move my hands due to the tight space between us. "Stay" his voice sounded close to my ear so slowly I force myself to open my eyes. By the time I do nialls face is already back I front of mine. I look him in the eyes, but it's not like any other time I ever looked him in the eyes. This time his gorgeous blue eyes met with mine. For the first time niall didn't seem so terrifying, didn't seem so bad. No he seemed like a normal guy that wasn't talked about daily. The rumors about him being a bad guy washed away. For that second it was just me and him.

Next thing I knew there was no gap between us. There were no centimeters apart because there was no 'apart'. Niall pressed his lips to mine. At first I didn't know what to do my mind told me to get him the fuck off but something else was telling me otherwise. And in that moment I did the unthinkable. I kissed him back. Me, Ellie walker, good girl invisible outcast, was kissing niall horan, bad boy tough guy doesn't give a fuck. The kiss grew deeper before niall pulled away. I looked at him. My eyes slightly larger than normal, my mouth barley parted. I just looked at him and he looked back. It was silent until he spoke. "Ellie I I I'm sorry I don't know-" I cut him off. I needed to feel his lips against mine again. I needed more. This time I kissed him.

(A/N what do you think? Comment a ship name maybe? Love you my koalas🐨)