They tear at my insides ripping me apart and shattering me as a person they laugh and call me weak and say I'm nothing they say I'll never be anything but a wise man once said
"You Only Live Once So Go FUCKING Nuts" I'm sitting there falling apart but I act like nothing is wrong I play it off like I'm normal when I goddamn well I know I'm not
I beg and plead and ask why am I forsaken by this pain I've always loved the wrong people and let the most horrible ones in
I realized I'm not the problem like they say. they're the problems they're the reason I am the way I am. She always wondered why I was so cruel and mean you should you fucking made me this way.
I tried and I tried and I tried and tried to make you happy but you never loved nobody loves nobody cares if I leave a letter who will really give a fuck about me?
I'm so tired of this shit I'm dealing inside I hate waking up and hating the world it's funny how people think they can save when I'm already so far Gone and have little left to live for. I keep strong for one person.
I keep trying to stay around for her because she is my everything and I love her more than words could ever express she has no idea how much she means to me. Sometimes I think this world isn't made for but I look at her and she reminds me of how much I'm worth she always tells me I'm worth a million armies.
I sit back and think of everytime my bastard father laughed and called me weak, pathetic, said I was a waste of space, told me I should kill myself, that I'm nothing and never will be nothing.
I sit and laugh at his stupidity wasting his time with drugs instead of the ones who should've meant most but didnt so you know what I've gotta say to that? Fuck you and I hope you rot in hell you mother fucking son of a bitch.
