Why Aren't We Normal (The Mortal Intruments Fanfic)

Concentating on the cars.

As I walk through the crowded New York streets, I see everything. From demons in their every day lives not hurting a soul. But they sure notice me. I walk shouldering past everyone and enter a store.

...... "Cold out there ain't it, Jace?" Myrse says when I shake off the snow on my boots. I'm shocked when I look up to see her.

"Go. Your not welcome at the Institute anymore. "

"I guess I'll just go get my stuff then. " I say, walking out into the streets again.

I finally reach the Institute and run to my room. I pack my stuff as fast as I can. Putting my phone in my pocket.

Then, when I turn around to leave, Clary stands there. Sympathy and fear in her eyes.

"Jace," she starts.

"Don't worry. I'm going now." I say pushing past her into the hall.

"Jace, wait. "She stops me.

I turn around, and she has tears in her eyes.

"Please don't go. Please, Jace, I need you. Alec needs you, Max, Izzy, we all need you!" She says hugging me.

"No. No one fully cares about my recovery. Not Alec or Izzy or Max or Myrse. " I say looking at her.

"I do. I fully care. Every last goddamned night you were in that hospital, I prayed. I prayed that you wouldn't die. So did Alec, and Max, and Izzy," she starts.

"I've made up my mind. I'm going. " I say. I'm not going to hang out around people who don't care.

"Jace, I love you. I can't live without you, please don't go. " Clary says, tears streaming down her face. She wasn't as strong anymore. I've been the shittiest person the past 3 months.

"No, Clary. I'm hurting you and that's why I have to leave. I'm being the worst boyfriend and who wants to date a suicidal?" I ask her. I gave too much away in that sentence. Why did I say suicidal?

'Why didn't you tell them?! they could've helped you but no. Your Jace. You'd admit your scared. Because your a cowered. You son of a bitch. I wish tyou'd die, Jace'

My father's voice replays in my head. I didn't notice where I was, suddenly and Everything was spinning.

"Clary?" I ask grabbing the wall and dropping my bag.

"Jace, what's wrong?" she asks me, running up to me and trying to steady me.

"I...I can't" I can tell what's happening. My vision is blurry and I'm dizzy.

"ALEC, IZZY! HELP!" I hear Clary scream as I slump to the floor. It's all happening so quickly. I'm not sure wwhat's going on.

"I love you, Clary," I can't finish my sentence, because everything goes black.