Why me?

WAIT!

I went upstairs and started to bag. I couldn't the feelings like something is missing... Or terribly wrong.. All these mix feelings are getting to me. I don't even know how I feel.. I'm in pain...at least not physical pain. Emotional pain, the kind of pain that can not be healed with just a bandage. As I start to pack I can't help but feel guilt.. DO I really want to live with Jesse.. Or not.. My heart belongs with hunter, but Bolivard. I can't just leave him dadless. Kids end up in jail and all because of that. Oh lord decisions..

As I continue to pack I hear Bolivard laugh. I smile and yell out to Jesse. "Are you supposed to be feeding him or playing around with him?" I giggle to myself as I hear footsteps walk behind me. I stop packing and stand up. Right when I was about to turn Jesse comes and puts his hands around my eyes. "Jesse stop playing around I need to pack if we want to leave." All I feel is a sudden push. I jolt forward. "What the hell Jesse! Stop playing for real!" I keep getting pushed forward. I can't see a damn thing, I can't hear anything. NOT EVEN BOLIVARD. At that moment I started to worry. What is happening and where is Jesse?! I feel a turn toward the corner and there we stop. His hands slowly move away from my eyes and I'm greeting by the bright sun. Once my eyes adjust I noticed something. There's..food...Jesse doesn't know how to cook. That means!.. I turn around as quick as I can and Jump. I land right in hunter's arms. He holds me tight and doesn't stop kissing me. He puts me down and stares into my eyes. "I'm sorry baby for leaving you. I was being immature. This is my son!" He pulls  Bolivard up in his stroller. Sleeping.. I smile and all I can say is "I'm glad he is your son" 

Just as Me and Hunter kiss, Jesse walks in. We all stare blanking at each other. Hunter is the first to move shoving me back and gently pushing Bolivard behind him. I stare at Hunter and then glace at Jesse. Jesse looks heartbroken. I pull hunter and whisper into his ear "I got this babe" I pull Jesse out the front door. He stares at me. I smile politely back at him. I look at him and can't see how this came to be. He hugs me tight. "I simply walked out to get the car started and I end up with this. You're leaving with him right?" Tears rolling down his eyes. I look at him and wipe those tears, No Jesse I'm not leaving. I'm staying right here.. The one that is going to decide to leave is you. He looks at me in a puzzled look. I smile and simply say "Bolivard needs his godfather here :)" Jesse smile the most cheesiest smile I have ever seen. He pulls me into a hug and tells me I won't regret it. As I walk back inside I start to wonder.. How will I tell hunter?.. How will he react? Oh lord. :/