Misunderstood [Phan] (COMPLETED)

Chapter: 11 END

I arrive at Dans room and it's strangely quiet. I try to open the door... it's locked. Luckily I had the spare keys on me, I unlock the door and walk in

"Dan, why did you lock the door?" I laugh

I look up and don't see Dan anywhere

"Dan? Where are you?" I walk over to Dans bed and see a note labelled 'Read Before Doing Anything'

I open it up

"Dear Phil, so I suppose I should write a note. I don't know when you're going to read this but I'm just going to explain everything. If the police haven't figured it out yet, everyone is still probably wondering how Greg died... well, I killed him, but it was an accident. We were fighting and I just lost it and went too far... I couldn't control myself. Also you're probably wondering why I've done this to myself... there's a few main reasons. 1) I was too unstable and I wasn't getting better anytime soon. 2) I just couldn't cope with the guilt and stress of killing Greg. Yeah he was a jerk, but he didn't deserve to die. 3) Phil, you were so much happier and stress free before I came into your life. So I figured, if I wasn't in it anymore, you'd eventually forget about me and just go back to your old, happy self. 4) I've caused so much unneeded stress into my mums life and it'd be so much easier for everyone if I was gone. When you read this, don't even bother trying to stop me because it will already be too late. I don't want anyone to blame themselves, especially Phil, this was my own choice, there's nothing you could have done. I don't know why I was put on this planet when it's clear I just ruin everyone's lives. I'm sorry for everything I've ever done to anyone in the past, that's why I'm leaving for good now. I hope everyone will just forget about me. I'm fading away and one day I was going to be replaced or forgotten anyway, so I decided to leave while I was ahead of the curve. Depression got the best of me. Phil, you would have eventually gotten bored or me (everyone does, don't worry) and found a new lover. I'm not trying to make you sound like a dick or anything, in fact you're the best thing that's ever happened to me, and I love you so much. Phil, I don't want you to feel like you only exist to make me happy. You deserve to be happy so much more than I do. So I'm hoping by me being gone, you can work on making yourself happy. I shouldn't be the reason why you feel like you're here... I just drag you down.
You've made me realise my deepest fear, Phil: hurting the person I love the most, and that's exactly what I've been doing. I'm sorry, I love you.
I'm in the bathroom right now. I was just going to hang myself but I wasn't confident in my ability to tie a noose so I decided to overdose just in case so when the drugs kicked in, I would fall with the noose around my neck. Well, this is how the story ends... I'm not great with goodbyes but please, just forgive and forget about me. Stop thinking about me, pretend I never existed. This is the most fun I've ever had ❤️"

When I finally finished reading the letter, I broke down, I cried the hardest I've ever cried in my entire life

I ran into the bathroom and saw Dan hanging from the ceiling. I run up on the chair that Dan clearly used and grabbed hold of him

I took the noose off his neck and carried him out of the bathroom

Then I laid him down on his bed. I started to freak out, not knowing what to do in this kind of situation

I called the police and told them what happened

They shorty arrived with paramedics and took Dan to the hospital. Dans mum and I went in her car and followed the ambulance

The paramedics tried to revive Dan but it was too late. He was dead, that was it

Doctors took him into the testing room and checked his blood stream to see how he died, they saw that he overdosed on co-proxamol and also saw that he had been drinking alcohol before and during the intake

I then mentioned that in his suicide note he said that he overdosed, they nodded

A few days passed, and today was Dans funeral. I dreaded this day because I knew that I was going to break down crying

I got out of bed and briefly straightened my hair before putting on my suit for the funeral. I walked downstairs and saw my mum dressed in a nice, black dress, ready to go

She looked just as gloomy as I did

We drove to where to funeral was being held, it was a short and quiet drive. After a couple minutes, I walked up to the coffin where Dans lifeless body was laying

"I failed... I was supposed to make you happy. I wanted make you happy. I wouldn't care if it took all my life to do. Because I love you so much, and I didn't say that enough. You thought you were dragging me down... but you were actually lifting me up. You made me feel like I could accomplish anything. You made me feel amazing. I just wish I could've done the same for you. I was supposed to make you smile all day, everyday. But I failed. I'm not great with goodbyes either, but I will never forget about you, I'm sorry. I love you and I always will" I started to tear up then my mum walked me away from the coffin

I sat down on a nearby chair, alone. This is how my life was going to be, I was never going to find someone as incredible as the boy I had

I just can't believe Dan is gone, forever. He'll be missed by everyone

So this is how the story ends... I lose the love of my life and I will never truly be happy.