At times I feel as though
There is this beast inside me
I can feel his claws ripping through my throat
I want to scream, but I'm choking on my own blood
I can't breathe due to this weight on my chest
Depression at first carrying him on my back
When he asked a friend could join
I could not refuse
So along came anxiety
Quiet and small
I almost forgot it was there
Until when I got tired of carrying depression
My knees weak and my limbs heavy
Then it struck
Out of nowhere little anxiety was a beast
A monster set to devour me whole
It grew to a point where I could take no more
Two had joined our party
Now five strong
Depression and anxiety brought along two
Anger and suicidal turning me into a ticking time bomb
I am afraid of love
But I need to be embraced
And along came another
I had trust issues to spare
That's how this story goes from cover to end
So go on call me those names real quick
They'll just add to the list
I keep in my head
I do not write in rhyme
For I, not a reason
Unless of course, it rhymes with treason
Some nights I cant sleep at all
And the shadows come to play
No matter how many times I tell them to go away
"I'm terrified of the dark! Please play another day!"
As my thin body shakes and spasms from lack of sleep
Everyone is worried
Perhaps it's all a facade
The fact that they want me to stay
Maybe all I really want is a night of eternal sleep
To wake never more
And deal with this beast
That's tearing me apart in two with such a great force
You always tell me my hands are as cold as the dead
Maybe because inside
I've finally got to rest.
