Veronica's POV
The whole ride to Taco Bell was filled with awkward silence.
"Coño this silence is killing me guys" I say as we walk to Taco Bell.
"Sorry" Ethan and Gray say in sync. I roll my eyes and we all enter in silence. I walk immediately to the bathroom and just stare at myself in the mirror. Luckily no one follows me and just goes to order their food. I look at my reflection with deep hatred.
"Why are you so ugly. Why are you so terrible. Do you have the words 'fuck me over' 'play with my feelings' on my forehead or something? You are a terrible person. Terrible friend. You should hate yourself. You do hate yourself. Your crazy. You don't deserve your friends. You deserved to get fucked over. You should just go in a hole and never come out" I say to my reflection. Suddenly a lady comes out of the stall. My cheeks turn red with embarrassment.
"Why do you think of yourself like that?" She says with sadness. She looks like she is in her mid 30s.
"It's how I feel about myself" I say and shrug.
"You shouldn't feel like that. I don't know what's going on, I don't know why you feel that way, but I know you shouldn't. No matter what is happening, you can never feel bad about yourself. That will never help anything. You must find a different way to deal with things. Take a long trip. Lock yourself in your room with Ben and Jerry's. do whatever you need to. Just know that hating yourself will only make things worse for you. A hound beautiful girl like you should not feel like that ever."
"But I don't feel beautiful" I say and look down.
"Trust me you are, just like every other girl in this world, you are gorgeous. You will always find flaws, but everyone has them and your flaws make you beautiful." She says. I smile gently and turn to her. She smiles back at me and pulls me in for a hug. Who knew I would find such a helpful person in a Taco Bell bathroom?
"Thank you" I say. She just nods and I walk out. I walk up to Grayson and grab the car keys from his pocket and simply walk out. They try to stand there for a second confused as to what I'm doing, but by the time they decide to come and find out, I'm in the car leaving Taco Bell. I get several calls from all of them, but I turn off my phone to block them out. I immediately drive home and pack my things. I have no idea where I'm going but I need to get out of there. I grab as many clothes as I can fit and all the things I need. I drive to the airport in my car and just look at all the different places I can go. I decide to go to Florida, the sunny state. My parents are there anyway visiting relatives so I'll go and surprised them.
--7 hours later--
I finally arrived in Orlando. My parents are at their new home out here while they visit my aunt and cousins. I keep getting texts and phone calls but I just ignore them all. I take a taxi to my parents house and lazily walk up to the home. I use the key I always have with me and just walk right in. I hear my parents talking in the kitchen and walk right up.
"Hey guys!" I say smiling. They turn around and I find my dad and my aunt sitting instead of my mom. My dads eyes fill with tears as he sees me. "What's wrong? Where's mom?"
"What are you doing here honey?" My dad says gently as he stands up.
"Where's mom" I demand.
"She.... she's" my dad looks down. My aunt stands up.
"She passed away Veronica" my aunt says slowly with tears rolling down her cheeks.
"W-w-what" I say and my phone drops out of my hand the room is so silent all you hear is the sound of my phone hit the tiled floor. "Your lying" I say.
"I'm sorry Veronica, she passed last night. She was having chest pains and we took her to the hospital. She stayed all day and the doctor said she would need examining. But she suddenly went into cardiac arrest. It was so unexpected, me and your father didn't believe it ourselves. We're so sorry we didn't tell you as soon as we found out but we were still processing" My aunt said. I looked at my dad and he looked so sad, I walked right to him and hugged him and we both sobbed into each other's shoulder.
"Does Blake know" I ask. I feel him shake his head. "You need to tell him now" I say while still crying.
"I can't just say it over the phone Veronica" he says softly.
"Well we can't just keep it from him!" I say suddenly angry.
"Calm down Veronica, there's no reason to get angry." Aunty says.
"Everything's going wrong! Things are supposed to be going good and now mom is dead?!? This makes no fucking sense. She was fine! This can't be true! It can't!" I say angry backing up with tears rolling down my cheeks nonstop. I rush out the house and drive to the nearest park. I get out and collapse on the ground.
My life sucks. Everything's going wrong. Why should I keep living. Moms gone. Grayson and Ethan destroyed me. I can't stay here. I can't. I can't. I'm going to go crazy. I can't go crazy. But I can't help it. Coño Veronica your talking to yourself. Your crazy. Your crazy. Your crazy.
"WHY DOES THIS HAPPEN TO ME" I yell to nowhere. Luckily no one was into the park.
Why did this happen to me. I can't handle this.
I can't handle this
I can't handle this.
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