Hold On Till May (Kellic)

Chapter 3

Kellin's POV

The whole time during art class, I could feel someone staring at me. When I took a break from my rough sketch of what seems to be a wrist, I looked around and I saw Vic staring at me. I blushed and looked down at my drawing and I think Vic did the same.

Time goes by fast and I didnt even pay attention to third period. All I could think of is Vic. Why am I thinking about him so much?!

During lunch, I sat with Tony and his friends. Of course that means sitting with Vic. "That was a nice drawing at art class by the way Kells" Vic said.

I looked up confused and I'm really sure my face was flushed. He called me Kells. I don't even remember what I drew during art. But.. he called me Kells. That's all I can focus on. I mumbled a thanks and just kept quiet during the whole lunch hour.

I think about Vic too much. Why do I do that? I only met him. Like literally this morning. I stood up and went to bathroom and stayed there for what it seems to be forever.

The bell rang signalling fourth period is starting soon. I left the bathroom and went to find my next class. As soon as I entered the classroom, I regretted.  Vic was in the class too, and I remembered that fourth period was performing arts. Vic is in a band. Of course he went to this class. Damn it, I thought. I wanted to find a seat far away from Vic as possible but as soon as I found one, someone walked in the class.

Matty Mullins. He was the guy who called me faggot in first period. He walked towards me, and my heart dropped as I know what was coming next.  He pushed me away from the seat  and punched me right in the face. After that he kicked me right in the stomach, he laughed and sat down on my seat. I was angry of course but I couldn't do anything about it. No way I was fighting back to a guy like him.

When the teacher got in class she said "Kellin is it? Why are on the floor?" I told her I fell and stood up to find an empty seat.

And unfortunately, thanks to Matty, the only empty seat in class was beside Vic. I took a deep breath, looked down and sat down beside Vic. I don't understand why no one helped me when Matty punched me in the face. I just sat there and pray that the rest of the day won't get worse.

Finally the day has ended and Tony and Vic was waiting for me outside class after sixth period. I ignored them and  ran back to my dorm room. I sat on my bed, not knowing what to do next. I dragged my feet to the bathroom and stared at the mirror. I didn't even realize I was cutting until I heard knock.

Another knock on the door brought me back to reality and I was crying. "Kells, you okay? Why are you crying?" I recognized the voice immediately. Vic.

"I'm fine Vic,go away!" I said. Just as I said that, Vic came in my room and saw me in the bathroom with a blade between my fingers.

At first he looked sad and disappointed, then he started looking angry. "I have been thinking about you all day today! I was worried sick when ran away from us like that! And this is what I get for caring about someone again?!" He started shouting at me. I just stared at him, not knowing what to do.

He broke down and started crying, but even though he was tearing his eyes out, he walked towards me, took away the blade from my fingers. He stared at me, dropped the blade and without me knowing, he grabbed my arm and wash away the blood that was gushing out from my new cuts. I guess I cut too deep this time. 

I didn't know why I couldn't move. I just stared at the mirror. Why was I doing that? I don't understand why I got beaten up for nothing. I don't understand why must it be me.

The next thing I knew Vic was pushing me against the bathroom door and looking at me with his swollen eyes. "Why can't I stop thinking about you? I judt met you and you did this to me. How? I don't care about anything but my band until now... you have this effect on me and I don't understand why. " Vic whispered.

I stare back at him. I can't really do anything at this position so I stared. I replied with a shrugged and Tony came in. Vic let go of me, passed Tony back his key and walked out.

Tony looked really confuse and I guess he was about to ask me what happen until he saw the blade on the bathroom floor. He took away the blade and threw it out the window. He didn't have to worrt about hiting anyone with it because our dorm room window is facing the field. 

I screamed at Tony and lunged at him. He grabbed me and push me down so that he was on top of me. I was crying and I couldn't stop. Tony slowly let go of me and bring me to my bed and tucked me in.

Only the first day of school. I rather die than continuing on with my life here. Just as I was about to shut my eyes, I heard voices.

"Kellin, do it. I know you want to Kellin. Just do it. No one in this world care about you. Just do it. " the voices said.

Do what exactly? Well, i guess the answer is obvious so here I am on the ledge of my dorm room window ready to die.