My name is... Valerie

Prologue

WARNING!

This book deals with suicide and other sensitive topics. Please do not continue reading if you are sensitive with the topics given some chapters may trigger the reader. However the book shows how those we care for are affected and deal with loose. It's mature because of some topics not for sexual content.

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"Hey...Hey woo woo WAIT... JUST WAIT " that is all I hear coming from the right side near the trees.

"I Don't want to..."

"Listen to me just take a step back...I'm here" he extended out his hand for me to hold.

"I can't not anymore. I'm not strong enough to keep fighting. Just turn around and pretend like you didn't see anything. No one will even know." I turn back to face the ocean. I can feel the light breeze hit my face, hands and feet. I can taste the salt coming from the ocean when I bite my lips tring to control my fear. I can see the rocks at the end of the cliff where the ocean crashes violently against, making a load roaring noise that send chills through my body. 

"I can't pretend like this didn't happen. How can I pretend seeing the girl in the library, with the captivating grey eyes, standing before a cliff ready to jump? How can I forget the way my body feels as adrenaline rushes through it and a million thoughts race through my mind while I am standing here? How?" He takes a step closer, keeping his arm out for me to hold. I can sense his body inching forward towards mine.

"I'm sorry that you had to see this. This isn't how I had planed things, no one was supposed to see. I was just meant to leave without anyone noticing." I look down to my feet and shaking hands before me. Then looked back out to the horizon, where the world blurs out into the distance. 

"You don't have to this. Nothing is worth deliberately ending your life for. Things might be really hard at the moment but..." he takes couple steps closer to me still stretching out his hand. "It does get better just don't give up yet...not yet. Let me help you. I can help you...Just...just take my hand" I take a step closer to the edge now placing my feet right at the end of the cliff.

"I just want to rest. I just want to be Free. All I want is FREEDOM" and with that I take one last breath, close my eyes and move my right foot up and out to take the step over the cliff. To finally be free.

"NO WAIT STOP!"...

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Description:                

"My name is... Valerie" is the story of Val. The story of how one afternoon, one decision and one action marked her for the rest of her life.

The story of a girl who is broken and can't see a solution. Can't see the reasons to live and continue fighting. A girl that is being dragged down by her past that she has kept hidden for years. Through years of maintaining a happy facade Val reaches her braking point, no longer able to move forward. Once the past catches up and becomes reality right before her eyes. This is the story of Valerie your average girl in high school. She prefers to go by unnoticed and maintain the people closer to her at a small number. Valerie has a unique personality and view on life. Until one night, everything that has been building for years and all the secrets that have suffocate her finally manage to break her along with her will to continue living.

Main Characters:

Valerie an average girl in high school. She's no genius, queen b, rich, jock, or popular personality in school. Preferring to slip by unnoticed and maintain those closest to her at a small number. Valerie has a unique personality and view on life. She is broken with no want to continue moving forward. Living in the shadow of her bother, outshine by his achievements. After the death of her parents Valerie rebounds with her bother and forced to mend their trust when her demons come knocking at her door. She is bright with a lot going for her moving past high school. Along with her two musketeers Julie and Lauren. Julie being her closest friend going back to grade school.

Malakia known as Kai is a simple everyday high school student. He is no captain of any school team or the stereo typical bad boy nor popular guy. He is on the same mission as anyone else walking the halls of high school just trying to get by, his eyes set on college and his future. Kai is part of The Nehalem high lacrosse team he is no start player but does have amazing skills in the field. He tries his best in class. Kai does not have the perfect life but enjoys the small moments in life with a positive regard.

A/N:

This is my first attempt at writing, I book hope you like it. I have never taken any sort of writing class other than the required by school so I'm not keen on character development or anything else for that matter. I'm in college at the moment and this is good de-stressor for me. English is not my first language and on top I'm dyslexic, sorry if things don't make sense. However I do hope you enjoy it. Updates are not constant college takes up a lot of my time overall because I'm trying to get into medical school.