It's a proven fact some people who have only experienced unhappiness when, experiencing happiness will destroy it or so I tell myself, it may be the only thing that explains why I destroy my happiness, or it can be my fear to the unknown, all my life has been filled with unhappiness and disappointments.
When i feel happiness I repel against it like two negative magnetics. As a child my happiness was christmas, opening my presents was my definition of joy, spending time on the dinning table with the people I call family was my definition of living live so, when I was told to stay up and to await for santa clause to arrive, me as five year old stayed up and waited.
I stayed up and my body was taken by the one who i call demon and that's where my story begins or so what I call my first memory, the first memory I have was of me experiencing "happiness" and it being destroyed and, oh my do I have so many of these nightmares I call memories.
So please tell me what is happiness? And why do I destroy it?
Because of now i'm completely lost.
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Diary of a Broken Heart
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