What happened in Japan?

Chapter 4

One Thing...

"One tear drop become two tear drops"

Summer is my favorite season because I'm free from school work but I visit my grand mom who lives in Jeju.This time my dad wanted to re-visit my aunt in Japan so as my sister who is there for some work we're gonna stay there longer and return when class will start again they wouldn't allow me to stay here alone so I have to go along.My friends are kinda sad because we are leaving as soon as possible but we planned to go to Everland when I comeback.I packed my stuff and ready to leave.

I still talk with sunbae we rarely meet and when we do just quick, nothing really happens like a date or small talk we just do a hello and bye.We are still the same(same 'thing'), the day before my departure is going to be our 100th day that's tomorrow.(I wanna see him so badly).

***Kat-Talk messenger

_shkim: Sunbae <3

woojh123:nehh?

_shkim:can we meet tomorrow?

woojh123:sure ,bt why?

_shkim:i want to see you <3

woojh123:okay.

Next Day...

We then met ,he was wearing a mask and fake glasses in our usual dates.I told him why I wanted to meet him "Mianhe,Seol-hyun I forgot" I told him it was fine and I'm okay(but dang it how could he even forget this day).He said he wanted to look for something so I went along he took me to a couple ring shop he pointed a couple ring designs.

Ji-Ho:which one do you like Seol?

Seol-hyun:i'm not good at picking this stuffs sunbae.

Salesguy:How about this couple ring with a note design this means your love for each other is like a melody and we can engrave your initials on it.

Ji-Ho:Actually today is our 100 days so I wanted this to be special my girlfriend is so precious and I want to give her the best for today cause I'm all hers.(I blushed when he said that so sexy attractive ,baby!!)

Salesguy:Fine I will give you free necklace  because I think you guys are a cute couple like an idol couple 

Ji-Ho:Sounds good to us.(he holds my hand tightly for the first time,I wanna stay like this forever)Why are you so cold are you okay?

Seol-hyun:yes i'm fine this is just normal hihihi..

After wait for 20 minutes the rings and ready to be worn he had the ring that has 'KSH' while I have "WJH" we decided to wear it as necklace and engraved our initials then we walked our way to Hanggang Park.At the park,we sat down into a blanket and had the first normal date ever with glasses and mask but still almost perfect right?We cuddle and chase each other this has been what I always wanted to be.

Seol-hyun:can i call you oppa?

Ji-Ho:yes, but people will know. 

Seol-hyun:why do you want to keep us a secret?

Ji-Ho:but you know that it'll be complicated just so.i like you Seol don't have second thoughts

Seol-hyun: you like me but never even once told me you love and that's two different things,today started so great because on our 100th day we just had our first normal date

Ji-Ho:let's go.

He walked me home him we never speak to each other.I can't even look at him in the eye.I just need answers and it hurts when you can't even talk to your friends about it.He stopped on the 5th house before mine I didn't looked back but I was so burdened so I run towards him and hug him at the back he held me but only to push me away cause he was so concerned people might catch us I felt so embarrassed that my legs we're shaking and I feel like I was about to fall because it's all blurry but I regained my senses he started to walk so I didn't have a choice I shouted at him from a distance "Let's take a break,oppa" he stopped for a while I thought he is gonna come back and hugged me or beg  just like in the movies but he didn't he continues to walk-away(jerk).

I arrived at home my parents are all set and ready to leave tomorrow but I feel so depress that I don't want to move even my finger I cried and cried the whole night.I don't understand anything ,I can't tell the girls right now cause they might throw a fit about me lying to them being in a relationship or a fling whatever this it and me leaving for Japan tomorrow. My heart is badly broken I don't even know if this was just my fault or was it his fault I don't know why he tells me he likes me about never tells me he loves me so we're just a thing-fling right?I would understand that but it doesn't make sense somehow when I heard him say the sweetest words at the shop he even called me his girlfriend but didn't ask me to be one he just put labels and zones but later on he'll pull the wall that I can't even break ,I try to understand but it doesn't really matched it's so hard.I went inside the bath tub my phone rung for a while but it stop probably it was low batt and I'm not in the mood to recharge it I turn on the water shower and lay down feeling like I wanted to drown myself with the water and I feel like the water never stops because my tears never ever stop the teardrop continued to run down my face and later I felt numb and drunk with the water. It's already past 3 a.m and we will leave at 6 a.m cause the airport is quite an hours and half trip.

We we're able to arrived at the airport safely thankfully I was able to put some make up so my baggy eyes wouldn't be so obvious I'm a little sad Dungchee wouldn't be coming along this time he is in Jeju taken care by grandma.The plane will start to depart anytime soon it'll be for an hour so I can take a short nap ,pretty sure.

***Note:Such a sad chapter isn't it?The bath tub and back hug scenario we're base on a true story mine when I was in 2nd year college I had a fling with this guy but he always changes his mind so I ended feeling broken,one time he told me he liked me but few minutes he took it back and break up the fling.What's your story guys?

***Edited:I was feeling sick today but I wanted to write this chapter