Dont Get Caught Up In Feelings

♡Filler - Pt.2

 "Will you to love bird be quiet and pay attention?"

I immediately started blushing “Yes." i could feel Julian smirking

We went over a few things then the bell rang we left together then went our separate ways to the lockers i got my books i needed for tonight and met up wit Joel we walked to the car we jammed to "The Language." By Drake. He drove to my TT house once there i got out  waved goodbye’s entered the house and told everone hello.

"How was school?"

"Cool or Whateva."

"Thats good." Then ty ran up my legs and hugged them tightly.

"Nilaaaa!" 

"Babyyy!"

"I missed youu!" 

"Me 2!" i told him

"i gotta tell you something!"

"iiight. Tell me."i said crouchin down 

He whispered in my ear  Paw-Paw  touched me on my private part.

after me told me i became enrage  " What you mean ?"

First, he took me inside his room we ate candy and played videogames afterwards he laid me on his bed and.... his voice trailed off he began crying but shortly he continued  and then i felt a sharp pain in my bottom he continued i told him to stop i screamed and cried once he was done, he  told me if i told anyone he would whoop me so dont telll anyone !

I WAS FURIOS! my own brother was raped by my grandfather where is my mother nowhere to found stupid bitch ._. running from her problems taking crack.

"I promise i wont." i said  locking my pinky with his and gave him and hug and kiss  then he scurried off to play i walked back over to everyone and told them they were furious as well. We didn’t know what to calll the cops or..... Times like this i miss my mom she would know what to she would solace us tell us everything would be O.K. I decided to take a walk to take everything in i pulled my earphones into my phone and began walking to my favorite place- my tree house when i was younger i went there all the time stayed up their all night and day. I walked home i went into the backyard and climbed the tree i went inside and sat down i was breathless. It was really dusty and spider webs but still very neat. Really Nila worst day to wer all white Airforces. I sat in my Hello Kitty  chairs which were around a table on the table wad fake plates and food a hello kitty notebook with pencils and a sharpener i sharpened the pencils and opened the notebook it had all my thought from when i was little good ones bad ones. Lawdd i was a bad ass i even cried a little it wa suh re live like everything was better. I flipped through the pages i found a letter it hada date which was current it read 

Dear Nila,

Its mommy writing you this letter, your probably, angry, confused and hurt. But Ill be back soon to confront you everything is going to be  O.K.,im just resting im not DEAD , on drugs hoeing around just taking a break- i need it so dont sit around moping be happy. You'll be fine, See you soon

                                                              Love, Mom 

                                            P.S. i felt because i have faith in you i KNOW you can handle it  Sept. 2013 

I was confused how see just take a break from life ! I KNOW YOU CAN HANDLE IT ! WTF no i can’t bullshit !  i wiped my left over tears and closed the notebook and left.  I went inside to drink some juice. I drank my juice then my phone rang it was unknown number i answer