My Thug (Who Do You Love)

I Love you

( 7 months later)

India

Life has been great. My relationship with Mekhi hasn't been great by that's my baby I love him something serious. Its April and school is almost over. Me,mom, and Mekhi I repeat Mekhi are going to Florida on June 18th. My mom loves Mekhi so much which is a good thing. I was sitting on bed texting to Jeremiah.

Miah- you love him that much?

Me- isn't that obvious

Miah- I guess....somebody calling me I talk to you later

Me ttyl

Mekhi grandma calling me. Yeah he lost his mom when he was born. When he talked about it he cried And I sung him to sleep.

Me: hell gma

Gma: baby I need you to come to the hospital right now

Me: what happened

I was putting my shoes knowing something happened to mekhi.

Gma: Mekhi got shot

I was there in 10 minutes. My eyes were red and puffy. His grandma was calm and collected.

Me: is he okay

Jeremiah and like 7 dudes came in talking to the receptionist. She pointed to us and they came running to us. I hugged Jeremiah tight as hell.

Jeremiah: is he okay?

Me: I don't know I'm scared

Jeremiah: every things gonna be okay. its Mekhi, he'll pull through

Me: I hope so

5 minutes....10 minutes.....1 hour. The doctor came out.

Doctor: We gave him the anesthesia and he went to sleep. It should have wore off hours ago but it didn't we came to the conclusion that hes in a coma we don't when hes gonna wake up but we'll keep doing test 3 times a month

Gma: thank you....can we see him

Doctor: not all of you

Gma: Jeremiah, India come on

We all walked to his room together. The doctor opened the door. I sighed and walked in. I felt Jeremiah grab my hand. I closed my eyes and walked in. When I opened them he was hooked to all of these machines. I lost it, I broke down I made Jeremiah and gma start crying.

Jeremiah: come on India

Me: my baby

Gma: we know..its gonna be okay you have to stay strong for him okay he wouldn't want you crying

Mommy: wheres my b- India!

She came and hugged.

Me: mommy look at him

I cried in her chest until I felt someone take me from her. I looked up it was my grandma.

Me: grandma?

Grandma: let me talk to you in the hall

She took me in the hall and wiped my tears away. I looked down knowing she was gonna say some real stuff.

Grandma: look at me hija

I put my head up and looked her in her eyes.

Grandma: you have to be strong for him, if your gonna be his ride or die you have to be here for him everyday forget others. be strong for his family and be there for them get them whatever they need so when he wakes up he know that your the one who did all of that okay that you held him down and you love him...I had to do that with your grandfather and he's dead now and I'm still there for his family and our kids...can you do that?

Me: yeah

Grandma: alright go back in there

Gma: I think we should let India have a moment with Mekhi

Me: thank you

Everyone left the room. I pulled a chair next to his bed and grabbed his hand. Tears fell I want him awake so bad.

Me: baby I know you can hear me please wake up please

I cried more. I rubbed his rough hand like they were a baby.

Me: I really want you to know I love you..... and if it was possible to show you every second of the day I would, i would in a heartbeat. All I want is you, and all need is you...and i'll scream it to the world it over and over again. You're such a blessing to my life, and I'm so thankful that God trusted you with my heart me and you against the world. I love you with all my heart baby.

I kissed him on his lips and left the room. Even though i'll be here tomorrow. I left with my mom and grandma wishing I had Mekhi with me.

I love you Mekhi<3 Even though you cocky and childish as hell I still love you baby. 6.24.11