Broken

WHAT THE HELL!

    The stick had two lines. "I'm pregnant. What the hell. JJ you did this to me." I yelled at the top of my lungs. I was so pissed it wasn't even funny i honestly just wanted to curl up in a ball and die. Partying was my thing staying out late not having to do a god damn thing it wasn't just in my head. My foster parents didnt care they just wanted my ass gone whenever i could be.
  My mother killed herself when i was younger. My father had left before i was even born so they weren't in the picture. The closest thing i have to family was my little sister and whatever is growing or going to be growing inside of me. I was scared shitless of what the future had to hold.
    JJ came in and said "What the hell did i do".
I honestly just wanted to strangle the shit out of him. But i don't need any juvi time so i just kept quiet.
Rain stood up for me and told him to back the fuck up.
   "Rain shut the hell up i want to talk to me girlfriend and see what the fuck i did".
Rain turned around and gave me the look like "The fuck did i miss".
    I just looked back at her like "I'll explain as much as i can later".
I didnt want to talk to him at all but i needed to.
   "Rain can JJ and i talk for a minute. I'll get you when im done and we can go get ice cream and ditch school for the day" i told her. 
    After she left JJ seemed to make his way into the bathroom. "So... is what i think true"?
"Yep, if i decide to keep this child you'll be a father. Let me guess you would leave me" i told him. "Hell no I've always wanted to be a father. Not at 20 (im 18 so don't worry) but if i can be a father to a child that i made with the girl i love then ill be happy".
   I couldn't help blush. I wanted to cry but i don't know why. He said "i love you".
When he said that i couldn't help but blush. I love you kept bouncing around in my head.
    "What the fuck have i gotten myself into" i asked JJ.
"You got us into an opportunity to raise a child together and get clean."
  "But what if i don't want to get clean. What if i want to get an abortion and not handle the struggles of being a mother. If im being honest i dont know if i want to get clean."
   "Your 18 and need to be clean. why the hell would you not want to get clean."
"Because my mother killed my twin sister by a drug overdose. How would it make you feel if you watched your twin sister suffer at the age of 10 with needles in her arm. Dying in your arms of a drug overdose."