the translation of a beautiful train wreck

Locked Doors

I see how you still strive for my attention
Even after you've said goodbye
It's like there's still hidden affection
But I know that that's a lie

If you still cared, how could you throw me out?
Did I mean nothing to you?
That question I still wonder about
The answer I wish I knew

There are moments when I catch your glance
From across the room
Though I know your consideration is scant
So my heart retreats to its gloom

I've become jaded to the pain
It's lost the sharpness in its stab
It feels like there's nothing more to gain
So I just pick at the scabs

I've shut the door and turned the lock
You're not coming back
All you can do is stand and knock
Because love for me you lack

I won't try any longer
I've made up my mind
My heart is growing stronger
Myself again I will find.

-H