SoraMafu One-Shots [2]

Strings

     I wish I can't see it...

My eyes darted from left to right. Suddenly feeling sick, I looked down instead and kept walking, with those red string all around me. I hate this ability of mine to see the red strings that connect soulmates. I wish I can't see them. If so then...

     I don't have to feel this pain...

I ate my lunch on the rooftop today, not feeling like eating with others. As I eat, I looked down and my eyes caught a certain raven with a blonde girl.

     Ah...they're together again today...

I, Mafumafu, can see the red strings. And Soraru-san, a senpai of mine, is my soulmate. Sadly, he dated Lon. When I first saw him, I fell in love instantly. Not because he's my soulmate, but something about him just...made me fall for him. I guessed luck wasn't on my side, because a several days after that I found out that he dated Lon.

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Today, I eat at the rooftop again. I also see them again, together. I don't know for how long I had stared, but I swear he looked at me before I turned my head away. When I look back, he's being scolded by Lon.

     Was that just my imagination?

I went back to my lunch box and continue eating, but for some reason, I felt full. I stopped eating and packed my lunch box, before I walk away. I thought when I was leaving, he and Lon also walk away. Maybe it was just a coincidence.

     Yeah...nothing but coincidence

I quickly went back to my class. I thought if I look back, this hope for him will grow bigger, and it will be nothing but a trouble, both for them and me.

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I really didn't feel good. Sitting on the rooftop while looking at them really wasn't a good idea.

     Maybe...if I'm not attached to him..just maybe...

I looked down on my pinkie. The red string was tied there. I followed it and I ended up looking at him. I felt it again. This heavy feeling.

     It hurts...

 I heard that if we can see the strings, we can also cut them. If it is correct, then...instead of connected to me, I can connect him with Lon and he'll be happy.

     Right?

I took out a scissor from my pocket. With a shaky hand, I brought the scissor closer to the string that hanged from my pinky. My body trembled, I just...can't.

     Come on...

Then, I stopped. I lowered the scissor and let it go. My body shook as I hug myself. I started to cry. This feeling..the feeling I've been having since yesterday, got heavier when I was about to cut the string.

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A few days after, I heard a rumor about him and Lon breaking up. Lon was quite famous, so maybe the news spread quickly because of her reputation. I tried not to think about it too much.

     It might be bad if I think about it too much...

At lunch break, I went to the rooftop again. As I predicted, I didn't see them at their usual spot. I couldn't help but to feel happy and worried at the same time. I went to my usual place, but I found him standing there. His blue eyes looking at the sky and he seem like thinking about something. 

     Why is he here?

I was about to leave when I heard someone called my name. I thought it was just my imagination so I started to take another step.

     "Wait! Mafumafu"

I froze. I didn't dare to look back. I'm afraid. Afraid....of what? I don't know but there's this painful feeling on my chest that stopped me there.

     "I-I'm sorry..you must be mistaken"

I was about to run away when I felt hand stopped me and turned me around. My eyes widened as I looked into his dark blue eyes. This feeling...this feeling that I couldn't describe. I swallowed something that caught in my throat and opened my mouth.

     "W-What is it, Soraru-san?" I flinched.

Crap, it must be weird for me to know his name. But he knows my name too. As I got swallowed into my thoughts, I felt he lift my chin to look at him. Then he throw me a question that made me surprised.

     "You...can see the strings right?"

     "S-Strings? W-What strings? I didn-"

     "Don't lie to me, you were about to cut it that time didn't you?"

I widened my eyes. He covered his mouth as his outburst. Maybe the look on my face made him realized that he wasn't suppose to say that.

     H-How...why is he...

     "Y-You saw me...didn't you?"

I saw him flinched as I felt tears gathered on the corner of my eyes. He lowered his gaze as he mouthed a sorry.

     "I'm sorry...I couldn't help it"

I shook my head, not letting the tears fell.

     "Why...why are you so concern about me? Why do you even know me?"

I saw him taking in air as he started to speak.

     "I fell in love with you"

My eyes widened. Was my ears trying to decieve me? I couldn't finish my thoughts as he started to speak again.

     "When I first saw you, I know that you're my soulmate. Also from the looks in your eyes, you also know that I'm your soulmate. I started to ask about you, I want to know more about you, I want to be with you. But I was dating Lon so I hold back. I thought maybe I was wrong. But whenever I saw you, this feeling grew and there's nothing I can do about it. So, I started to look at you whenever I can. That day, when you were about to cut the string, my heart beat so fast. I was so scared. I was scared that maybe you didn't want to be with me so you tried to cut the string. But then you stopped, it made me happy. I was very happy that you didn't do it. So I broke with Lon, because I realized something...something really important"

I just stare at him as he told me everything he felt. I felt my cheeks heated up when he looked at me with a gentle smile.

     "I was afraid of losing you...because I love you"

My breath hitched in my throat. I felt the heat started to spread to my entire face, but I also felt tears swelling on my eyes.

     "E-Eh? M-Mafumafu, why are you crying?"

He started to panic. Then I laughed, I laughed to my heart content with tears still running down my face. He hugged me close as I cry to his clothed chest. I mumbled something as he let go of me. Maybe he didn't hear me.

     "W-What was that?"

I smiled, "I love you too, Soraru-san"

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I'M SO SORRY THAT I NEVER UPDATE!!!! PLEASE FORGIVE ME!! ORZ
WHENEVER I WANT TO WRITE, I CAN'T SINCE THERE'S TON OF HOMEWORKS AND-- wait that's just an excuse I'm sorry

I promise I'll write another two that had been inside m draft for god-knows-how-long. I'll start making them later (or maybe tomorrow idk) I'll see you guys later on the next chap. I'm really sorry ;-;